The Past
Back in 2020, I was a total mess – anxious, lonely, searching for a place to belong. That's how I found this community, wrote a cringey bio, and took a deep breath before hitting "send" in the chatroom.
Okay, I was terrified. New people, new rules, and so out of my depth... But that first "Hello!" was the start of something incredible. Late nights (thanks, timezones!), deep talks, I absorbed so much from amazing folks. This place became my lifeline, a weird and wonderful corner of the internet where I felt understood.
The Good, The Bad, The Ugly
But real journeys aren't all sunshine. I learned the hard way about "Insta-doms" – ugh, those who think a label gives them power. I was naive, eager to please, and this one person almost wrecked me. They played on my insecurities, chipped away at me until I barely recognized myself anymore.
Thankfully, friends saw the warning signs even when I was blind to them. They helped pull me back from the edge. Let's just say, I learned the importance of safe boundaries, the very hard way.
Then, I found a Mistress. She was the opposite of everything bad – kind, caring, invested in who I was, not just the label. For a year, we talked before even considering a dynamic... and when we did, all those old fears rushed back. But she was patient, so patient, and helped me build amazing trust. Submission felt safe with her, which was everything. That lasted two good years, then life happened, as it does.
Back Again
Work got crazy, I stepped back... and logging in after four years? Whoa. Some old faces are gone, and that familiar "outsider" feeling is back again. I know those who knew me likely built whole new lives. And hey, if you're out there and remember me, I hope you're doing awesome.
As for me, time to dive back in, see what this community has become! Maybe make some new friends, some new mistakes... It's all part of the journey, right?