Sir

When I first came here, I was looking for something to give me what I don't have in real life sexually. I thought I would satisfy my lust then leave, but you became more than that. It happened so fast I didn't even notice it happening. For me, you fundamentally changed what being a submissive meant to me. You taught me things I didn't know I needed/wanted. I feel like I've grown because of you. I guess that's the responsibility of a dom, to teach and protect. I feel so lucky to have you sometimes, and other times I feel vulnerable and scared because I'm trusting you so much. But I know you always have my best interest in hand. I wonder if you ever feel vulnerable too. 

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore
That she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist, but darlin'

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
But keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

But, you are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream, oh

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception
You are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.

-paramore 

When I say I'm a selfish sub I don't mean I'm selfish in the "bratty" kind of way, I mean I'm picky about how I want to be treated and who I want to let into my life. I'm learning that the bond between a dom/sub is almost sacred in a way. There's a certain amount of trust and honesty that's required, and in the wrong hands that could devastate a person.