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Haha God can be hilarious! So,  the neurosurgeon was uncomfortable with his view of this uninvited thief in my brain. So with literally hundreds if friends and family praying for him and me,  this morning he comes to say the Chief if Pathology is required... And naturally,  unavailable this Friday,  so we are pushing back the surgery till Friday,  22DEC...  at which time,  I will now have both the Chief Pathologist. AND the Chief Neurosurgeon!  Ha!  God us good! 

Thanks,  y'all,  for your prayers & encouragement! God is all over this! ❤

This is a bit odd,  but I find myself in an odd place.  I'm writing mostly to solicit your best thoughts & prayers. Friday,  after a whirlwind series of events,  I will go under the knife,  not for  fun,  but for life. A brain tumor came uninvited. I am calm & confident my loving Father has a good plan,  but there are still many details to tend.  This has been quite sudden. I will,  of course,  keep you all updated as I am able. Much love! V

So many broken ? hearts and relationships. Why is it so hard to maintain a solid relationship? 

I'm not a marriage counselor,  but I've been around long enough to see the common traps we fall into. 

As in nature,  nothing is random. Everything has an order,  so with us,  humans,  there is a natural order.

Now,  I know many will disagree, and that's just fine! I'm speaking from my experience. 

While men and women have equal worth and value, are just as worthy of respect,  generally speaking, by nature,  men and women have different roles,  and each benefits from the other. 

Man is a natural hunter (provider) and protector,  while women have a natural "warning system," and are naturally nurturing. Man is naturally,  the leader,  but what good is a leader without a faithful and skilled follower. There are a number of popular metaphors used to describe the natural order,  but the one I like best is that man is a lazer beam focused on provision & protection. Woman is like radar,  constantly scanning the horizon for trouble. When she detects it,  she communicates the danger to her man who focuses his lazer beam on it! Lol

I've seen this in my own failed marriage,  and in the relationships of many friends and family members. If those roles get out of balance or start to switch, the relationship suffers. 

This fits well with a D/s or M/s model. 

There are exceptions to every rule, but I'm speaking in generalities here. 

Ladies, usually, if we give our man respect, serving him by honoring his desires and preferences,  he will respond with the gentle affection and care we ladies often seek. 

Obviously,  no one rule solves every issue,  but,  its a good start. 

What say you? 

V

I just want to take a moment to thank God for allowing me to find myself,  even when His design goes against political correctness. ❤

Over the years that I've been wandering through the kink world,  I have often heard slave /submissive interchanged.  However,  it is my opinion (feel free to think differently,) that there are significant differences. 

Correct me if I'm  wrong,  please,  but while both submit,  the degree of submission is not the same. 

A slave gives up all rights, privileges,  and limits to the Dom/me in her service. The submissive gives up some or most rights,  privileges,  and limits,  but does reserve some hard limits. 

As much as I wish to submit fully,  it is a psychological struggle to commit via contract to relinquishing all rights to my SELF. 

Thoughts? 

My heart and my soul yearn for the touch of my Master's hands. To relax in his acceptance,  Yet stirred by his Maleness.

Everything within me aflame with the passion

To please Him & delight  Him, 

To love Him,  honor Him,  and obey Him.

His touch,  sometimes sweet and gentle,  opening me further to His control;

Control that is skilled and sure,  stretching  my heart and soul to meet His demands;

Other times hot and stern, firm and unyielding

To break my will and mold it to His own.

What can satisfy like Master's touch,  whether stern or sweet,  God knows what I need.

And I bow...

Where fantasy and reality collide,
Is someplace deep inside,
Dreams of need and adventure,
Collide in truth and rapture.

Where fantasy and reality collide,
Always takes us for a ride,
Down dark and lonely pathways,
Through fields of dreams set ablaze.

Where fantasy and reality collide,
Passion and entanglements reside,  From intimidation to cognation,
Two minds and souls collide.

Where fantasy and reality collide,
Needs bump into pride,
When will confronts intimidation,
And risk generates satisfaction. 

Perhaps the most trying part of D/s, like any relationship, is the communication between the "D" and the "s."  There are so many traps and games people play, especially online, it is hard to trust enough to be REAL.

Then, there are behaviors common to submissive's, part of our submissive nature, that craves attention & affection while we struggle to surrender our will (etc.)

Example: Dom has placed an hourly check in rule on his sub. She does her best to comply, every hour sending text telling him what she's doing, where she is and what she's feeling. He replies, "OK."

She wonders if he has lost interest, if she's just annoying him, or any number of other goofy things. Or is it a power play? Is he testing her?

She continues to obey, to report in hourly... Or should she? ?

I have not posted here for awhile. Changes are afoot! Happy changes.

Perhaps some of you have noticed... Or not, but I have come under new management. I am not, or have not been a believer in online collaring, not because it isn't possible, but because it takes time to build that level of trust and relationship with a new person. That is where I have been, building a relationship, baring heart and soul, exposing weaknesses and needs, and risking my heart again.

I have reached a place with my new Sir, where I know He can own me and take me in hand well. We are quickly approaching the point in time when our words and desires will have the opportunity to become flesh!

He is strong and controlled; he is tender and caring. He is stern and controlling, protective and HOT!

So much more... That I yearn to know, to understand, and to adore. 

Sometimes our connection is so strong it scares me, yet it draws me even closer and deeper under his management... And I am filled with devotion and gratitude.