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Coming out of Hiding

A place to share my thoughts as I finally start my journey in the lifestyle, and explore the desires and needs I've kept hidden for so long.
7 hours ago. Nov 24, 2020, 7:40 PM

Sometimes in life, you're just dealt a rough hand. You go through things that leave you feeling raw and broken in a way.

It makes you weary and cautious, perhaps even jaded and uncaring. Thankfully it has only made me weary and cautious.

I still have such a love and passion for life, I'm just careful with whom I let beyond the walls.

With whom I let see below the surface, to the deeper, darker, more fragile bits of myself. 

It's lonely, so much more lonely than people realize.

However, in that loneliness, in this dance of one, I've found myself suddenly swept up by a dance partner who isnt afraid of the fragile bits. Who has taken my hand, held my gaze, and has not wavered. 

He has joined me, and started to shine light on the shadows that my own fire can't touch. 

3 days ago. Nov 21, 2020, 10:34 PM

Ever have a conversation that leaves you feeling like you could walk on clouds, or dance on water? 

I had one of those this morning. I have a feeling there will be a spring in my step, and extra sass coming out of my mouth today lol. My poor co-workers. 

I love when something so simple makes my entire day a hundred times better. 💙 

Now to get my mind to focus on work, not drifting back to said conversation lol. 

3 days ago. Nov 21, 2020, 7:34 AM

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4 days ago. Nov 21, 2020, 2:09 AM

I've wanted to get my nose pierced for a couple of years now, but my ex-husband always told me it would look ugly on me. 

This year, to celebrate my 1 year anniversary of walking away, as well as my birthday gift to myself, I finally did it!! 

Thank you to the lovely soul who encouraged me to do it!

I feel adorable, and love how it already feels like I've always had it. Piercings, tattoos, and dying my hair have always made me feel more myself. More beautiful. More genuinely me. So much so that this is my 13th piercing! 

4 days ago. Nov 20, 2020, 5:53 AM

I feel so called out right now 😂

6 days ago. Nov 19, 2020, 2:26 AM

5'4 to be exact 😝

 

6 days ago. Nov 18, 2020, 9:21 PM

And fuck off with them. 

I am not a game. My heart and emotions are NOT A GAME. They aren't playthings for you to get your laughs at. 

I will give everything to the man who earns my trust, respect, and love. I will give you the greatest gift I have in the form of my submission and my heart. 

If all you're going to do is string me along for your entertainment, go fuck yourself. 

Nothing will get me more enraged, and ready to strike with my scorpio side than to be treated like a fucking game to somebody.

And in case those in the back can't hear me: 

 

I AM NOT A PLAYTHING

I AM NOT AN OPTION

GO FUCK YOURSELF

 

 

6 days ago. Nov 18, 2020, 7:38 PM

My birthday is on Sunday, and since I won't be working that day, a few friends at work got together and brought my birthday gifts in early. 

I got a llama, a couple boxes of chocolate, a few margarita drinks, and a birthday card. 

It's been a long time since anyone but my parents bothered to remember my birthday, so it means a lot to me even if it is a small thing. 

 

6 days ago. Nov 18, 2020, 8:39 AM

Sometimes you just gotta share what makes you smile and feel good about yourself. 🤷🏻☺