Bitter rejection

Being called a liar..really
6 hours ago. Thu 16 Aug 2018 12:29:15 AM IDT

Young of age....

I saw no fear....

Then he just died....

A child so dear... 

I thought i loved...

She showed no grace...

My vision blurred...

But no tears on my face...

But life went on...

Gave pain no break...

She nodded yes...

I found her fake...

Again and again...

My tarnished heart....

If found a spot...

Simply torn apart....

So i vowed no more...

I would grow cold....

Sit on the porch...

And just grow old...

Then a flash of light...

Pierced my heart....

Surely one time....

Love would not depart...

But the devil came...

Tore her from my grip...

He pulled her down...

Lashed with his whip....

He slashed my heart...

He did not miss...

I lay in ruin...

Waiting for a lavender kiss....

1 week ago. Thu 09 Aug 2018 04:36:18 AM IDT

Anyone can have faith when things are good....when your bank account is plenty...when relationships are good....but true faith....true courage comes when you get knocked down...when people tell you that you are wrong..that you're a fool...when dogma marks you as a failure...at that moment....to get up...to fight for what your heart believes... What you know is right and good...to put others first...when you hurt....to fight...no matter the outcome...because the fight is just...that is courage... We do not need heros..we do not need superman....we need common peoole to show courage....to show faith in each other...and for me...to believe in Angels....

1 week ago. Sun 05 Aug 2018 11:45:19 PM IDT

They search.....they struggle...it alludes them...the answer the puzzle....i grin from the shadows...this i have...i finish....i leave nothing standing....drag me from my santuary...the four horsemen... They rip me in four... They drags my limbs to the four depths of hell...the Jackal tears my hurt from my chest...the queen of hearts laughs...they set it ablaze...grind it with glass...they feel such joy...and i could fade...but i beg for more...i still feel pain...there must be more...i must be punished for my sin...then all is still....i am alone...just my pain...just memories of the cannon shattering the dawn...and i surrender... And release all reason...into The Abyss... One last time...I sigh...

1 week ago. Sun 05 Aug 2018 06:56:07 AM IDT

Do not weep my precious child...

The breeze is cool....

The light is true....

I beg no more....

My needs are gone....

The sailors dream. ...

The seas are still...

Where once was anger....

Only time moves on....

The dreams of foolish hearts...

Have run to there end...

But weeping has no place...

Tears find no home....

I found my dream....

I found my way....

Nothing to fight this day....

And now i know...

The fool was true....

So weep no more....

I found the distant shore...

 

1 week ago. Sun 05 Aug 2018 06:33:10 AM IDT

The mighty destroyer....

Rusts upon the ocean floor...

The warrior strong....

Feeds the worms of the prairie...

Strong we stand.....

Defiantly we pose....

It is folly of the fool....

There are thorns on the rose..

I once saw a way....

I once felt love....

The foolish boy....

A peasants throne.....

He pounds his chest...

Then speaks grand words...

But trembles and weeps....

When she takes his sword....

For words are weak...

And fear is strong...

The lord of both....

Is lost too long....

But now my home....

The boneyard lawn....

Oh to fight...

To boast....

The hero way....

Is but a ghost....

2 weeks ago. Mon 30 Jul 2018 02:36:09 AM IDT

I woke up today sad.....feeling sad for myself...lost...bitter...defeated...i could not have what i wanted...not now...maybe never...but the chance ia there...but why can't i have it now...come on...57 years and i can't have what i want...then i caught a news clip...a four year old girl...cancer victim...had lost her hair...had not long to live possibly...she had been given a wig ..her cherrished hair...they had a video...the girl that she shared a room with...had just lost her hair...during the night... The girl crawled from her bed...removed her wig...and set it on the bed of the sleeping girl that just lost her hair...and i am sad...i despair...i am ashamed how weak i am next too her...strength is all around us...God..or Mother Earth...or whoever runs this circus....gives us great gifts...more than we deserve...cherrish them...dont become old and bitter seeking what u think u want...accept the simple gifts you are given....before its too late...

2 weeks ago. Mon 30 Jul 2018 02:00:50 AM IDT

I once did sail the seas....

A pirates life for me....

Till mother drained the tub...

A childs life for me.....

I once fought a dragon....

The Slayer was my name...

Till father called my name...

The chores the life for me...

I once married a princess. .

A beauty dressed in silk..

Till the noon bell rang...

A students life for me...

I once became a king...

And sat upon my throne...

A toddler came a knocking....

A daddies life for me....

I once road a wild stallion...

Across the great high plains...

Till the fuel gauge ran too low..

A truckers life for me...

Today my dream is simple...

My vision a bit blurred...

I seek my loving angel...

A dreamers life for me...

 

2 weeks ago. Mon 30 Jul 2018 01:50:22 AM IDT

Without light....

There is an empty void...

Without hope.....

There is only pain....

Without faith....

Evil will reign....

Without truth... 

Liars have there day... 

Without surrender..  

There is only death...

And without you....

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1 month ago. Fri 13 Jul 2018 03:30:14 AM IDT

Today i saw....

Great hope.....

In her eyes.....

Today i saw....

Her need for truth....

Her desire to trust....

In her eyes....

Today i saw....

No sign of pain....

No broken dreams....

No disappointment....

In her eyes....

Today i saw...

The wish to please....

The gentle heart....

The hope of love...

The dream to be needed...

In her eyes...

Today i saw....

My want...

My needs....

My lust...

My weakness...

My strength.....

In her eyes....

Today i saw...

A dreamer fall in love...

In her eyes....

 

1 month ago. Thu 12 Jul 2018 08:21:13 PM IDT

Devil when you come for me....

Look high...Do not glance low...

You will not find me trembling there....

But standing strong and firm....

A dagger in between my teeth...

My fists a ball of rage.... 

Pilgrim when you come for me....

Do not place doubt upon my faith....

I may not bow to your own God... 

I bow to none that claim the day....

But worship love and forgive all pain....

Peasant when you come for me....

Don't beg upon a knee....

But rise instead....

To share my food....

And help me to be sane....

Angel when you come for me.. 

Come freely and remain....

Don't mend my wounds....

I need the pain....

Your kindness wins the day...

So love when you come for.....

No i pray...

So love when will you come for me....

That....will be my day....