Bitter rejection

Being called a liar..really
1 month ago. Fri 12 Jan 2018 08:16:52 AM IST

Wait.....

Stop sir....

I think thats her...

No....

Nevermind....

Must be my eyes....

They see what they wish to see...

My heart feels what it wishes to feel....

But the ride....

I paid for this damn ride....

With blood and tears...

And I'm not getting off...

Well maybe...

If i just knew....

What the visions mean....

Why i hear her voice in my sleep...

I sense her touch....

And i become weak...

Like a child....

Maybe i am....

Maybe that is why i like the ride...

For my horse is a mighty stallion...

And yes that is her...

Just ahead....

I spur my mount...

But to no avail....

She remains but a distance vision....

A beauty beyond my meager ability to dream...

And i put a child...

Upon my favorite ride....

Then a hand..

My mothers voice..

Come on son....

We must get home...

But mom....

Just one more time...

The girl mom...

The girl....

Then the music ends....

The fog lifts....

I stand before my mothers grave.....

Yes, just one more ride mom...

Then i will be home....

 

 

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2 months ago. Sun 03 Dec 2017 04:30:10 AM IST

The ivy creeps over the palisade...

The vision clear... Or no....

I reach out...in disbelief.....

My intentions frail...hope fades....

But yet....the flesh is soft

My mind races....my sight fades....

The shadows... Or simply the night....

Then again....the scent of lilac....

That soft pulse....purity of soul...

But no.....not for me.....

Me of passion...me of pride...

The humble soul....elusive soul..

Then a breeze....a faint kiss....

My heart soars....i am reborn....

But oh....the fool....

The breeze.....has no soul......

3 months ago. Tue 21 Nov 2017 08:46:35 AM IST

Life has a guarantee... And that is pain....but to continually enter into situations that guarantee pain....would that make one a masochist......or an optimist.....

3 months ago. Sun 19 Nov 2017 07:21:42 PM IST

Peace will one day embrace my soul....and I will welcome it....but not this day...not in this realm...here the demons taunt my heart...and the warrior grows weary...and one day he may fall...and evil will reign ....but that day is not today...today the blood of my struggle lingers bitter upon my lips...but still it beckons me..that place and time when justice shall be done. ..when he returns all shall be just...on that glorious day lies will find no shelter...the light of truth will be a mighty sword...and peace will calm my troubled soul....

3 months ago. Sat 11 Nov 2017 07:02:54 AM IST

This ledge, is my ledge.....

You see.....

It is mine, mine alone....

You see....

But crowded... Is my ledge....

You see....

My vanity.... Is here... 

You see....

My pride...here too...

You see.....

On my,  crowded ledge....

You see.....

I would like u, to join...

You see....

On my, crowded ledge....

You see....

What is that....your vanity...

You see....

Will not fit, on my ledge....

You see....

So now....i must....

You see....

Leave my ledge....to be free...

You see....

I am gone....

You see.... 

The ledge is free...now...

You see.....

3 months ago. Wed 08 Nov 2017 06:12:47 PM IST

A recap of articles on Empaths.

 

Being an empath is when you are affected by other people’s energies, and have an innate ability to intuitively feel and perceive others.  Your life is unconsciously influenced by others. Empaths perceive physical sensitivities and spiritual urges.  You either are an empath or you aren’t.  It’s not learned.  You are open to process other people’s feelings and energy. So you take on their feelings. Empaths experience things like chronic fatigue, environmental sensitivities, or unexplained aches and pains daily.    Basically you walk around with all of the accumulated karma, emotions, and energy from others.

3 months ago. Sat 04 Nov 2017 09:01:52 PM IST

Personal observation....i have a passion for history...The Civil War is my obsession... So are Civil War Generals capable of Empathy... My opinion... Many generals were Empaths...and highly sensitive......

The two leaders....Robert E.Lee....was often heard expressing this sentiment to his commanders...""To be a great leader...is to order to there death....that which you love most.""

 

Ullyses Grant...When Grant took over Union forces in the east...Lee seemed able to make the war last past northern tolerance. Grant was different in one way. If Lee defeated him, Grant did not retreat. He pressed on. One such battle, or shall we say slaughter, was Cold Harbor. Fought on June 3, 1964. Grant had superior numbers. He advanced a large force across the James River into an open field. Lees hardened veterans waited. They cut down thousands of Union soldiers in minutes. It was described as grain before the scythe. Men began to panic, retreat haphazardly. They were met by a sword waving Grant, screaming for them to stand there ground. They did, and Lee did not pursue. But Grant was not able to mount an offensive for some time. And the dead covered the field two and three deep. Still Grant pushed his men to be strong.

 

That night, just as the sun set. An aide looked for Grant. Grant was found concealed from site. He was kneeling, face buried in his hands. Weeping uncontrollably.

3 months ago. Sat 04 Nov 2017 01:26:49 AM IST

Are Empaths all over sensitive??

Generally speaking yes...but not all highly sensitive people are Empaths...an Empath internalizes and feels emotions...much stronger than one who is only overly sensitive... Her is an explanation from a professional that makes sense to me..

 

""Empaths share all the traits of what Dr. Elaine Aron has called “Highly Sensitive People,” or HSPs. These include: a low threshold for stimulation; the need for alone time; sensitivity to light, sound, and smell; and an aversion to large groups. It also takes highly sensitive people longer to wind down after a busy day, since their ability to transition from high stimulation to being quiet is slower. Highly sensitive people are typically introverts, while empaths can be introverts or extroverts(although most are introverts).""

3 months ago. Thu 02 Nov 2017 06:55:33 AM IST

Ok....so i have this whole plan for these polished, highly informational posts on Empathy...i still have them in raw form...but instead i am going to blurt out a more personal opinion...bare with me....so you interact with this person....they seem very kind and caring...almost creepy...so you break off the interaction to deal with your own problems... Totally fair and understandable....now u can focus on your pain..try to get over it and move on...excellent...the Empath?...cannot do that...there are stuck with your pain...even if u broke off interaction...and now the pain of loss...and there normal issues... Sounds odd...irrational...yes...3 times the pain...welcome to the world of the Empath...

3 months ago. Wed 01 Nov 2017 06:30:21 AM IST

Well...here i go....first...i talk too much....i joke too much...i hide behind a vail...this does not make me unique or special...to some it makes me seem caring... To many it makes me an asshole...i am probably some of both...but watching people here talk of hopes and fears... Exposing themselves for all to see...made me make an unusual decision...to talk about part of me i almost never discuss...maybe only one person knows of this...now this is not a plea for attention or pity...i need neither... It is an attempt to give insight...maybe cause thought...and i also believe many relate....what the hell am i talking about??...hold on..geez...i am talking about Obi-waun Kenobi.... When Alderan was destroyed.."I felt a great disturbance in the Force, as if millions of voices suddenly cried out in terror and were suddenly silenced. I fear something terrible has happened."

Welcome to the life of an Empath....

Part Two to follow.