Good afternoon, evening or morning,
It's my first time writing here so forgive me if you find something unpleasant or out of context . I joined this community to express how I feel about things that sit deep inside me, and
right now I'm feeling lost, I'm feeling lost in this place around these people and around everything that is near me.
Have you ever felt like a fish out of water?
Someone who was never meant to be where you are, a place where not only it is difficult to find 'your' people, but where they will even look at you with disgust if they see something that they don't understand or if you mention that your interest lies in something as bdsm.
To be honest it is not the only thing which bothers me, but it is a huge part of it because it only reminds me that I am around these creatures who have not the slightest clue of who I really am.
My girlfriend is from Europe and I'm grateful to find such a soul who not only understands me but also shares same interests and feelings as me.
It is because of her I am able to continue with a cool mind and I am never ashamed of what I like or dislike, although there are days I wish I could flee and NEVER look back , I am a patient guy and I am looking forward to not only follow my passion but also be happy with it.
I'm sharing this because I believe I'm feeling this way because I always want to be the dominant one and it feels like trash when I don't have what I want, but I suppose it is alright to feel low sometimes even for people like us.The bright side of things are that there is a lot more to learn more people to meet and hopefully a lot to more achieve.
I hope whoever reads this, you have a good day.