The ramblings that I wrote

There will always be a moment when you fall good or bad but how do you recover from it?

When you put your trust and dedication into a thought it's a powerful tool for both creation and destruction. It's not a choice we get to make through it all before hand how it's going to end up.

There's a thought that's will always cross you mind at one point or another and it's going to hit you like a stack of bricks. Ultimatums are something we all struggle with, it becomes a balance of will you won't you. To tip toe a line on something for comfort will make you fall in the end of you can't make a active choice for something it's time to work on that.

You know the things I mean the doubts that claw from behind the eyes deep into the very soul of a person you need to communicate not only with others but yourself as well in a healthy way.

Your nervous system it always trying to communicate needs with you just like a partner listen to it FFS.

In short learning what your emotions are telling you will help you a lot if you feel confused or unsure about stuff find the root of the cause together and fix it before it gets out of control and you lose yourself in the process.

Please remember nobody's truly alone reach out talk to people and don't be a stranger you always have one and if your saying you don't you do just ask everyone wants to do there best for some its for others but to the worst types they will only take,break and consume without remorse.

Be the change you need 

Where to begin well it's simple.

There's a cheaper way of saying this but I won't be the one to deny you the manners a old soul like I have been raised to do as such.

Not everything is going to be as you try to make it life will and is actively seeking to throw a wrench into your plans when the opportunity gives it a chance. Don't be the one to let it, Don't stay for comfort and convenience. But one for the love of yourself don't stay because you are afraid to be alone... Some lessons we learn the long way not the wrong way because all lesson's are not right and wrong even the hard painful moments have good lesson don't say you learn anything a wrong way it's all trail and error.

Now about errors.... Those are things we do make like myself I made a massive error after my ex six years into the relationship was asking me to sleep with other men and justified the idea do to the fact I had slept with one person before being with her and she had not been with anyone else. 

This was disheartening and soul shattering to hear but I'm justification I gritted my teeth worked through it and no it didn't happen but what did was years or tormented that could have been avoided if I listened to my gut and wasn't afraid of being alone. Ah see what I did there brought back the intro into the mix.

What I'm trying to say is stand up be strong communicate with eachother for Christ sake don't like something don't attack them say "hey I'm feeling a little bit upset with something that's been going on can we talk about it" all it takes be adults and know yourself and needs so you can grow together as a pair not a rivalry between House's your not God damn Romeo and Juliet your frank or Tony or Bill and Jean or Tena or whoever.

Team up work your shit out and if you can't don't fold in to there demands and lose yourself in the process like I did.

I have nothing I lost everything but hot damn do I got stories traumatic experiences and knowledge to deal with it also training and therapy to be who I am today so ya stick around don't I don't mind it's the words that are read by those who need them most that are important love, life and lose three big L's..... 

Nobody needs to do any of them alone.