Maybe Maeby

It’s usually easy to stop and obey the big commands, the stern voice that stops me in my tracks. What’s harder is to be mindful of the small requests and the order of things. The polite, loving asks. The “when you’re done what that, please do this.” It’s too easy to pay attention to my own voice. To be overly focused on what needs to be done, how I want things, the next step and the next ten steps. To hear what I want and to think I know better. So every day I try to be better and do better. I want to listen, always, with respect and admiration. I want to be submissive and mindful not just when it’s commanded of me, but in all those small moments that make our dynamic a thing that still amazes me.