Random thoughts...

Steps out of the hot shower and on to a mat while I pat down my body. Still a bit damp I spray my body spray and perfume. Lotions up my body so my skin is smooth with the warm scent of vanilla and cinnamon. Slowly swaying my hips to my bed and picks up the black silk thong and fishnet stocking. Zips up my Black and purple corset that hugged my waist and allow my breast a comfortable place to sit and be seen. I pull up a long skirt with a high slit in a dark purple shade. Lastly places my feet it white 6 inch heels that are signed by my subby boys and girls that I call mine. With simple eyeliner and lip gloss and turned and looked at the full length mirror. I saw myself on my knees in a full body harness begging to be taken.

Then I wake up.....

Who am I? What am I? Who's am I?

The End

Hello fellow Cagers,

 I want to take the time to honestly rant and talk about how I feel. For the past 4 years I've been suffering from back pain. In October of 2020 I was admitted into the hospital for have stroke like symptoms. I was diagnosed with having Chronic  Nerve pain in my back and the right side of my body. The medications made me useless. If I didn't take them I couldn't sleep and  I couldn't eat from the pain being so bad. I can't stand without a walker or cane for longer then 5 minutes.

I lost my job and with my condition makes it impossible to find another one. Which causes me to be over due on bills which adds stress with lead to my depression and Anxiety skyrocketing when I thought I was about to work though it. That made it had to keep up with school and I'm afraid that I have to drop out.

"Well why not apply for disability?" "I'm sure you qualify." "My friend/family has it and the don't have it severe like you." Those are the comments or similar That I hear everyday. And I'm here to say that it is not that easy when you are by yourself.

I am stuck and don't know what to do besides giving my body but even that is hard(mentally and emotionally) 

I'm not expecting a pity party I just wanted to be able to express myself and say that...

I'm losing hope but I'm not done yet.

Hey everyone, 

Hope everyone is having a safe and kinky holidays. I had a question or two and I was hoping you all can help me.

Say you are a Sub or Dom that finds your match but yall are in different states or countries, hold would you deal with that? What are somethings you would do or have done that helped keep that dynamic even when you can't see each other easily? I always wonder hope to here from you all soon

~AS~

I realized that people are weird when it comes to communicating. When I say certain things I communicate in a way where I am expressing my thought process about a certain subject that was sent to me. And I find it interesting how the things I say make it seem like I am assuming something. Have you ever had that feeling you're just stating what you feel about it and they reply that you're making assumptions? In your mind you weren't making assumptions you were just stating how you felt about the situation. Maybe I'm built different but that's okay in all honesty maybe it just shows that I'm a lone wolf and people won't ever connect with me.

Happy Spooktober everyone!

Its only been 3 days and I can say that I am exhausted. 

I work full time at Dunkin Donuts and the harsh standing on my feet for 8-12 hours straight just because people need coffee is killing me.

Yes restaurants like mine are essential during this pandemic and I'm glad I have a little money coming in but should I sacrifice my health?

I recently found out that I am not a good enough submissive because i have limits... yes you read that right my fellow kinkster. At first i did feel hurt since i am very new to embracing my BDSM side (they said they had years of experience apparently) but I realized that it's ok to have limits, boundaries for yourself and others. 

This may be an actual random thoughts but I wonder why the sky is blue?

It's the last day of the month... which means 2020 is close to ending. We are making it through, (R.I.P to the friends and family that didn't they will be with us forever)

I didn't have a good day today but it wasn't bad either.. I was I quiet but busy day for me.

Interestingly since joining this site I started to realize I am a submissive when it comes to everything I do.

Have you ever felt that in the just the simplest things you are a submissive, a Dominant, a little, etc?

This is my first blog. I'm a bit nervous about it but, I thought I would try it out.

Coming home from work and freshening up before bed. Then tucking yourself into bed it a daily routine for me. However after doing it for so long and not having someone to be in bed with you gets depressing. Don't get me wrong I'm an only child that had a mother work long hours so I fend for myself and still do it to the best of my ability. However, it's cold as hell in my apartment and I need body heat. (Chuckles) But in all honesty it would be nice to have some but sadly I don't have time (Sighs)