tallslenderguy(other male)
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1 year ago •
Feb 6, 2023
1 year ago •
Feb 6, 2023
i grew up knowing i am gay, a total bottom and a cocksucker. i can trace my crushes and attraction to guys to 7 years old. Alas, i grew up in a religious culture and consequently tried to suppress my nature... (lol, sorry straight folk, i know this all may sound schmarmy to those who don't relate, but this is as real as real can be for me, nothing contrived or 'role play' will do for me)
Suppression, of course, didn't work, and nature eventually won. i gave my first BJ at age 27. It was, ironically, given to a crew member on a missionary ship that was in port for repairs, i was a volunteer and they bunked me in with a crew member ("Skip") for the night. The berth was tiny and dark, with only the dim light from the port hole to give a dark, shadowy atmosphere. i had been in my bunk for some time when Skip came in. He didn't turn on the lights and went to His bunk about 4 feet away. He laid down, and over the course of what seemed hours, we played a silent Cat and mouse game. Neither of us could see more than shadows, but i sensed Him masturbating, and i returned mouth sounds. Finally, i could stand it no longer, and a lifetime of want and need got me up and over to His bunk. No words passed between us, but He offered me His Cock, and i took it like a starving guy.
It didn't take Him long to climax a lot of semen, but it never occurred to me to do anything other than swallow, and never has sense. Sex with a Man, no matter the form it takes, has never been a strictly physical act, and that has only deepened over my lifetime. For me, a Mans seed is a part of Himself that He plants in me, and i am a garden made for a Man. For me, the whole act of receiving a Mans penetration, Him fucking or me sucking, His orgasm, then seed, are all profound and important components of my connection and bonding to Him. His seed is part of the 'glue' that bonds me to Him, so the thought of spitting His seed out is counter intuitive at best, abhorrent at worst. No matter how i receive a Mans seed, i crave that as part of my connection with Him and always want to retain and absorb it, it's a form of impregnation for me, which seems the primal purpose of Him penetrating and seeding me in the first place.
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