Would just like to explore my sexuality and experience something different, something a little bit out of my comfort zone.
I would really like to find someone to guide me, someone to show me things and pleasures I can't even imagine right now. Looking only for online fun at the moment.
I'm new to BDSM, never done anything like it before but would really like to explore this world. I'm interested in giving up control, but to a gentler man. I don't like violence and humiliation, I would prefer more sensual kind of domination.
The thought alone of submitting control to someone is scary but for some reason I'm very drawn to it.
I'm not really sure about submission 24/7, I am curious more about submission in bedroom, or submission in sexual aspect. Maybe something more task or challenge oriented to start with.
Also for me dominance does not have to be an act of violence. My perception of submission is to give control over me to someone, to allow him to guide me and show me things and feelings I didn't know before.
I always fantasized about being helpless and controled during sex. Also the thought of someone playing with me and using toys on me or directing me how to use them excites me. Part of excitement is being surprised, guided, maybe challenged to go out of my comfort zone, trying new things and see how far I can go.
I think I can handle some pain if applied in a sexual way.
Nothing too extreme but would like to explore the pain/pleasure thing.
I don't want dominance to be expressed in a rude, requesting kind of way but in a more diplomatic kind. For example if you say something like "I request you to do this or else..." my instinct will turn in a rebellion and repulsive mode. But if you say something like "I would like for you to try that; or It would really please me if you do that; or let’s see if you can do that" I could go beyond myself to try to do it.
Even if I submit to you to a certain point, if I allow you to control me, I would still like you to think of me as your equal and treat me with respect.
Here is the starting point. Please have in mind it's all just theory for me for now. Things may change over time...
LIMITS:
- calls
- Humiliation of any kind (verbal, physical, in public or private);
- beating
- Marks, permanent damage, blood, cutting, piercing, tattoos, needles, branding, fire play...
- Pissing, scat and anything to do with that kind of thing
- Choking, breath play
- Public scenes, exposing of any kind, exhibitionism
- Severe pain
- Sexual deprivation or orgasm denial long term
- Urethral sounds
- Orders concerning everyday life like what to wear, what to eat, finances...
- Drugs