Creating an account on here is a way for me to better understand myself. Especially my sexuality. Lately I've been feeling this lust I can't quite describe. This is all so new to me, and frankly it's terrifying. So excuse me if I'm behind on the lingo and the vocabulary of this arena. I'm still learning. But here I am, putting myself out there. I want to learn, I want to explore, and I want to fulfill this void. Will you help me?
I am a 32-year-old widowed mother-of-one with a teenage daughter. My late husband and I used to do a lot of kinky acts during our love making. He'd tie me up, pull my hair, choke me. And even gunplay was something we did to really get off. Just recently my job has reawakened this urge for more.
Sometimes I dream of being tied up. I just want to let go and be taken. Approaching this subject with my recent flings is hard to talk about. But I no longer want to feel ashamed of the desires that I have.
Scat, anything illegal, physical harm, scarring