== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Dominant
100% Rigger
100% Non-monogamist
99% Degrader
99% Master/Mistress
97% Sadist
87% Owner
80% Daddy/Mommy
62% Primal (Hunter)
58% Experimentalist
51% Voyeur
50% Exhibitionist
11% Ageplayer
0% Vanilla
0% Switch
I disagree with the sadism rating. My mean streak surfaces occasionally. When being mean, I get turned on by the sub enduring something at my behest and not the pain/discomfort. Not sure if that is still sadism.
In truth, I don't particularly enjoy administering true punishments and would prefer they were not required. Unfortunately, rules are rules and all the rest. I do, however, enjoy excuses to spoil and as such become even more unhappy when forced to do just the opposite.
Also interested in hypnotism and operant conditioning.
BDSM has been a journey of understanding myself for 7 years now.
In retrospect, the signs were obvious as far back as middle school. I often thought of what some other person I knew could acheive if they just allowed me to controll their actions. These ideas still manifest without conscious or deliberate invitation. In my early 20s, I remember telling a lover that I enjoyed sex but it seemed to be missing something.
I feel like I need a real friendship before BDSM even becomes relevant. Just not into spending extra time with people I don't care for, much less pour energy into them.