A study in contrasts I suppose.
Almost pathological in my desire for privacy although the firewalls appear to be slowly dismantling themselves.
A logophile with a penchant for pedestrian crude speak. Fuck, yeah.
Pleonastic and loquacious, why use fewer words when there are so many interesting ones out there?
Tautological and no matter how many times I restate an idea sometimes you just have no idea what the goddamned point is.
Self-depreciating but proud, yes, sometimes overly so.
Occasionally witty, more frequently jejune.
Naive yet jaded.
Empathic but socially inept.
Language and words fascinate me in general (ya think?), sex in most manifestations particularly the kinky ones (well duh, see below...), adrenaline and endorphin stimulation in many varying forms.
Not really sure at this juncture. Came to Cage trying to find something I used to know and discovered saudade.
I'm not really looking for any new partners, play or otherwise, at the moment, but I've been lumbering around long enough that as soon as I throw out an absolute Life will inevitably sucker punch me so I try not to do that when possible. I'm here because I need to keep unpacking that which I carry and this is the one place I've found that actually allows me to do so...Just a heads up, might want to avoid Saudade entirely if that sounds like an unpleasant experience for you, dear reader...
For as long as I can remember I've been a bit deviant and wanted to experience life's available pleasures. So yes, I'm a hedonist I suppose, or perhaps more appropriately, a demimondaine...
Always been a Switch, used to lean heavier to the submissive, particularly in relationships as opposed to play, but I'm enjoying the innate Domme-ness that is manifesting itself strongly now. Not ruling out ever kneeling again outside of a play only dynamic but it doesn't feel like a terribly likely situation atm. I do tend to be a sensual, nurturing Dominant. In a submissive role my preference is to be treated much the same, however, more intense play sessions can be fun on occasion.
Also have always identified as bisexual because I am attracted to and have been involved with both men and women for play and in relationships. However I was recently reading an article about pan versus omni and I think omnisexual probably fits me perfectly. 'I'm not gender-blind, I notice gender but simply do not care!’ (shout out to -Boop for the phrasing it so well)
Things I particularly like include (but not limited to): Restraining/bondage, including a fascination with Shibari; impact play, bare handed OTK is a personal favorite; rougher sex; anal play; oral worship; toys in general.
Not really much of a masochist and definitely not a sadist, so no one is getting chained to a wall and bullwhipped! Nope, not happening. (More power to you if that's your thing though.)
Breath play, gun play, and needle play are truly terrifying for me (and not in a good way) and fear or predicament play is of no interest atall.
Mind control/hypnosis is a Hard Limit for me. Nobody is going to fuck with my brain. Just. Can't. Go. There.
I'm not fond of harsh degradation/ humiliation, particularly outside of a scene. (giving or receiving)
Reasonably sure anyone familiar with anything I've written knows exactly who this is. That was kind of the point. Dinosaur because apparently that's my spirit animal, and Schrodingers (yes, there is supposed to be an umlaut, didn't bother trying to find the special character) because like the paradox, both alive and dead, or here and not here, concurrently. Reality only collapses into one or the other when the state is observed.
And I suppose measurement has been taken, I do appear to still be here. May well leave the new moniker in place though, its odd and I rather like it, but I probably will just use me normal nick in correspondence, much shorter…
Even though its bitten me in the ass, fuck, again...I still want to be involved here...to celebrate the highs, commiserate the lows, and laugh at the mundane with other people who live beyond the pale. I'm no expert but I have seen, done, and been through some shit in my time. If I can help someone else avoid at least a little of the pain (and not the good kinda pain...do not avoid the good kinda pain!!!) I've put meself through, it just seems to be the civilized thing to do. I'm going to put out a few preferences though...
I don't know how much I'll be interacting, with anyone, so please, if you feel like you may be hurt if I don't respond immediately, for both you and I please just don't reach out. Not saying I won't respond, just may take me a bit. And btw, I have a horrible habit of logging in and leaving Cage open while I'm working or otherwise occupied. Doesn't mean I'm actively ignoring anyone.
Second is a biggie, please use simple concepts and clear wording if you would like me to consider something you'd like to say. I love words and word play, but frankly some of you all suck at sotto voce shit. It gives me a headache and ups my anxiety to uncomfortable levels. I've decided that if I don't understand something it is going into a separate 'does not compute' file immediately and not making it into any data set at all. Don't want you to waste your time if I'm just going to ignore it anyway.
And the final is that I can't control what anyone else says about me at all. I'm not interested in any more consternation, at all. But I'm putting out clearly here, no one speaks for me. I'm unowned and my own responsibility, I own no one nor am anyone's protector. I have and had friends and relationships here but as of right now, I'm just me.
I am Henna...