The past several years have been exceptionally difficult leading me to question damn near everything. I lost my brother in December of 2021. Of my three siblings, he was the one I most related to & I couldn’t save him. I’m past the anger & blaming phases of grief and solidly in the ‘what is this existence all about phase?’
I get particularly turned on watching, reading, listening to what probably qualifies as soft erotica.
Unfortunately, I’ve yet to find someone I want to explore this with & trust enough to even mention. I recognize that a lot of what I enjoy is pure fantasy. It’s likely my form of escapism just like getting a new tattoo or piercing lets me feel some physical pain that turns into something beautiful.
So yeah…..I’m fucked up, but aren’t we all a little fucked up?
Update: still lurking in the shadows. Gonna hop over to some of blogs. I’ve seen all ages on here & I’m curious how you knew this was where you wanted, no-needed to be.
Exploring. I’ve read it as ‘kink curious’. I’d say that’s a good description. I am a Scorpio. If you’re one, you know what they say about Scorpios. Natural born leaders. We don’t follow rules. We don’t mind being the center of attention. Loyal. Reliable.
Might that be why I’m searching for something different? Sometimes the strongest amongst us just wants to be taken care of, for a change.
If you message & I don’t respond, don’t take it personally. I’m not on here all the time.
Violence , degradation….and anything you’d normally use a toilet for-not happening.