I don't really know what to put here. I just got out of a really toxic relationship, and part of the problem was the sex wasn't amazing I guess? I just have a really hard time releasing. I'm 24 years old with 2 kids. I've had 3 sexual partners. All horrible experiences. At this point I feel it's my problem. I used to fantasize about sex like a lost puppy, always reading steamy fantasy novels wanting it to be the true thing. I know all that's for show. It's not as great as porn and romance novels make it seem but it's got to be better than this ..if I could count. In my 24 years I've only came maybe 10 times with someone else. With myself it's no problem. I just have questions I want answered I guess. And to tease the darker side of me I've never been able to open up. Find out what i truly like and don't like.