About me? Im a Shy (I wouldn’t consider myself an introvert though ) professional 39 year old , located in Utah. I love to travel, love to work, always looking for new adventures big or small. I love finding joy in the little things. Im 5’9”, athletic build, 175 lbs. I’m stepping out of my comfort zone with this, as it’s very different from what I’ve shared in the past. For as long as I can remember, I’ve observed from the shadows, watching a lifestyle I’ve always wished I could be more involved in. Over the years, I’ve been searching for others who share similar thoughts and goals.
I consider myself an open book, but I often struggle with what to share. If there’s anything you’d like to know, please feel free to ask—I’d be happy to answer. Talking about myself doesn’t come easy, and I tend to shy away from conversations about “me.” However, I’m willing to try for those willing to listen.
I’ve worked hard all my life and am confident in my abilities. I’ve always seen myself as submissive, though I’ve struggled to define my goals and aspirations. I’m realistic, and I understand that finding what I need won’t happen overnight. I’m not looking for just anyone to take control of my life; I’m searching for someone with whom I can fully entrust that responsibility. I realize this might not be easy to explain, but I’m willing to try harder if needed.
Maybe others in my position feel the same, or maybe they don’t, but at some point, I find myself wanting to give my life to someone I can cherish, fear, and trust. Someone who can take the reins and say, “I’ve got this.” I’m not looking to offload my burdens, as those are mine to bear. What I seek is the release that comes from surrendering choice, freedom, and decision-making—if only for a moment—to quiet the constant noise in my mind. While these concepts might seem trivial to some, for me, having my life, my choices, and my well-being in the hands of someone else would bring the peace I’ve long sought. I would gladly offer everything to the one who could provide that sense of peace.
Though this idea is deeply personal, I see myself as a submissive to someone I could serve and honor without question.
This might all sound a bit overwhelming, and I sometimes feel like I’m asking for too much. My instinct is usually to delete this and keep quiet, but I’m looking for conversation—friends, like-minded people, and those whose thoughts and experiences could help me grow.
This is a work in progress, so if you have any questions or thoughts, please feel free to ask. Thank you for reading.
I will be honest, I’m inexperienced with the lifestyle, but eager to learn.
Although open to a lot and I know I’d be willing to anything for the right “one” I’m not interested in anything illegal, or having to do with knifes, blood, scat, children , or mutilation.