After all this time I have come to realize that I have had simple dreams. I want to explore but at the same time I'm anchored to this nagging feeling, that I need someone in my life. I give all I can and don't ask for much in return, because I don't need it.... I wanna be firm but I'm a goof sometimes, and I find that ok. I find it ok because well....... I know there is at least one woman out there, at least one sweet doll of a woman who has fallen in love with that but who has been messed up so badly by others that she feels that she doesn't deserve any of what I do. I do these things because I love her and I love humanity I hold bitter resentment to those who actually and truly take the humanity out of people. I'm not the perfect man but I know that I can be content with who I am and I'd like to think that that can make me a strong bastion for any lost soul to cling to. I want to be this, but..... I know for some it takes a lot of opening up but I am a man of patience and I hold my integrity on the line for anyone who judges otherwise. There is one special soul out there I know I was not the one who failed at keeping and I don't blame her either, I fell in love with her and the influence she has had from others has not served her well and I hope she can find happiness if not with me and if she chooses to come back I will be waiting, so kitten if you are reading this I'm hoping the best for you and everything you're going through.... just know that no matter the rough skies and storms that you put me through and the stuff you want me to believe I will always dare to head into the eye of the storm in your heart to get the woman I love
Signed: Your Ace Pilot :)
I will not switch control.
I am now trying to get myself together and really try to start something serious.