*late edit, since it comes up every now and then. I'm straight and NOT looking*
I'm not the kind of man that can be easily summed up in a bio like this, but here I am anyway. Looking to possibly, connect, share, or maybe even befriend, but we'll see what chance throws my way.
I'm new to the "scene" and to be honest, I'm not comfortable here. I only recognized my darker proclivities during the first half of 2025 and I am for a myriad of reasons not exactly enamoured with what I've seen when researching and trying to understand my particular preferences.
Aaanyway, briefly about myself.
Neurodivergent male aged 53, 1.78 m. Married with two children (minors) and two cats.
I have a heart of gold, unshakable ethics and an iron will.
I'm tactical, strategical and pragmatic, a romantic cynic to my core. Shaped by external and internal focus from a young age to question _everything_, including myself. Little to no higher education, but a well read autodidact with a love for knowledge and understanding.
I've either personally experienced, heard or seen the range of human nature including stuff I'd like to "unknow", but in the end it's always the capacity for beauty in our species that trumps it all.
I haven't really explored any of the BDSM-expressions I've developed an attraction to over the years, but they all bear one thing in common:
The "language" of BDSM is the only one I'm aware of that can even begin to come close to express the same level of intensity as the feelings I can develop for a lifepartner.
It's the pure, unadulterated strength and purity of it. The "trueness" of it. Something that approximates "freedom".
According to sources I trust I'm supposedly exceptionally gifted in basically all fields of recognized intelligence, but I wouldn't blame you if you don't believe me XD
I can be just as slow on the uptake as others and the way my intellect works has yet to provide any measurable results :-P
Because I read patterns, in time and space. Details are only there to form the basis for how I analyze everything around me and unless I'm in a flow-state I'm hard-pressed to regurgitate any particular detail on the fly XD
It does however make me "quite" talented at developing architectures, structures and patterns, also in relationships.
Now then, when and if I'd look for a new partner, I'd look for a 24/7 D/s dynamic, inherently based on egalitarianism but with distinct TPEish elements. If you prove your worth, earn my trust and demonstrate the qualities I love in a partner you'd be subject to more freedoms than traditionally associated with this dynamic, but never without my final permission.
That is _now_, who knows in what direction such a relationship could develop. Maybe the entire TPEish approach would organically cease to exist, maybe it becomes full-on. Only time could possibly tell.
Because everything is fluid. Words, meanings, expressions, thoughts and relationships all change over time, _everything_ changes over time. Sometimes within the brief timespan of the utterance of a single sentence, sometimes over decades or millennia++.
Anywho, I've only listed my well established preferences and hard-nos in my bio and even though I could list all of the stuff I'd want to explore with a potential partner here, I think it more important on focusing on the dynamic itself. The various BDSM-expressions are in a sense tools for me and what I really look for in a relationship is the opportunity to allow for as much mutual exploration and growth as possible.
I can explain most details and nuances regarding my own particularities, but there's always something new to learn or try.
And with the right partner I will nourish and cultivate the environment for both to explore, grow and love. And if the stars are properly aligned, maybe even transcend.
For I seek that most elusive of experiences, total freedom. Interpret this as you will, but for me it includes freedom of expression, at the very least. It could mean residing in a meditative state, or a flow-state. Your mileage may vary.
I'm not going to include the "I like fishing"-list for general relationship mapping and just state that I enjoy:
The good talk,
A solid connection,
Humor,
Fun,
Passion,
Introspection,
Reflection,
Patience,
Respect,
Courtesy,
Recognition,
Awareness,
Gratitude.
Don't get me wrong, I'd call you a dirty fucking slut while pissing down your throat, but by the time we'd get to _that_ point you would already recognize it as the compliment and title of honor it is. That it's shorthand for Goddess. Besides, you might be orgasming so hard from gulping down my love, that you'd fail to even notice XD
Other qualities I'd look for in a lifepartner are maybe more superficial, but still, a reflection of what I appreciate in life in general.
Beauty,
Elegance,
Refinement,
Delicacy,
Contrasts.
You'd preferably be at least 10cm shorter than me
and even though I have a sweet spot for exotic beauty these two last points are by no means dealbreakers.
Neither are any of the others for that matter, they’re simply reflections of what I value.
I am unfortunately somewhat limited in my ability to travel and I am 100% medically disabled enduring pain/discomfort and reduced energy levels at practically all times.
But trust me when I say this:
I have more than enough for the right person, possibly more than any one person can handle.
We'd grow and explore _together_ and I'm a LOT more resourceful than these few words might lead anyone to believe ;-)
Oh, as an effort to communicate using a more traditional format:
== Results from bdsmtest.org: ==
100% Dominant