Tussinomics

masochist female

[[You're pulling out your teeth]]
[[And I'm the novocaine you pump in your cheek]]

[[That's why I'm still around]]
[[You've got blood running]]
[[Down your chin]]
[[But you suffer peacefully]]

Not here to be your sub.

Not here to be your plaything.

Not here to get you off.

Not here for you to work out whatever entry level style of dominance you think you can pull on me.

Real connections are organic. They come at the moments you don't expect. They pull you back without hesitation.

Arousal starts in the brain. Too many people have forgotten this. Or never cared to know it in the first place.

The term 'mindfuck' isn't used loosely by me. It's my ultimate goal, really. 

I have a medical condition that I will eventually speak out about. Not yet. It leaves me with a lot of self-esteem issues and with a sense that I do not belong in the kink space. I would like to believe that is untrue. But I have yet to discover the opposing argument in my favor.

For now I'm looking for friends. Mentors. Interesting evenings of conversation that leave me excited for the next. Most people can't give me anything else. I can't give me anything else. 

I have a very high pain tolerance. Physically. Emotionally. Mentally. 

I like to write. I plan to do more of that. 

Feel free to reach out and I will talk to you about most things. Most. 

I'm married and that's not super important as to the reason I am here. But for the sake of transparency. Well. 

Yes he knows I'm here. We both have our own separate journeys.