I am 31 years old living in the Philadelphia area. I have had a long held interest in BDSM but never did anything about it so I am extremely new to the community and am trying to get a grasp of what it is and if it would be something that I could be a part and enjoy. I am still in the researching and learning stage, trying to meet (talk online) with as many different people as I can to get opinions and details as to what to expect as a submissive. If you are willing to allow a very intrigued person pick your brain please message me.
The parts that have intrigued me: I am in awe of the absolute trust that seems to be innate in the lifestyle and needed for it to work. I have never trusted anyone that much and the idea of giving someone that much trust terrifies me but also seems exhilarating at the same time. I would liken it to when I went skydiving. I am also intrigued by the sexual aspects. Since right now this is anonymous, I was raped by a very close family friend when I was 20 and was a virgin at the time. 11 years later I still have chosen to be with a man and have decided that I am taking back what he took. This goes back to the trust for me- I am assuming everyone here if we were to meet in person would understand and respect NO. I want to explore my body and sexuality and am looking for someone to guide me in that process as well. (I know way too much info.)
Don't really know but I know I would not like debasement and humiliation as part of whatever comes of this. Everything else- never tried and I have a philosophy in the rest of my life try at least once so...