|Springfield, Missouri, United States|
I have been a natural sub for a long time. I am very obedient 34 yo and a quick learner who is looking for a TPE D/s lifestyle where I have little control at home but have the ability to be the strong independent woman I need to be to face the world and survive in it. Which I do very well. I want to leave that at the door when I come home. I am into Shibari as it helps me meditate and calm my thoughts. I am always thinking so I need someone to take control of me and my sexuality and offer me peace of mind through direction, routine and decisiveness. Who remembers that being a great sub is highly respectable and greatly powerful. Someone sensual with a high sex drive who is very confident and can stand alongside someone ambitious creative and self secure, who wants to understand what makes her tick and keep her for a long time. I am an hourglass curvy girl who is looking for someone who is active and will go to the gym with me as part of regular routine.
I am not an emotional creature. I will not survive in an emotional household. I cannot and will not guess how your emotions are making you feel today, or be expected to understand you at a level that I can read your mind. I can feel when you are upset, I can see it in your body language, but I will not hold myself responsible, nor am I capable or guessing the emotional puzzle piece you need to make you feel better. So if you cannot vocalize, or understand that being in a house of constant emotion is a weakness for me, we will not be compatible. I need rational conversation, with a partner who prefers growth and developmental conversation, over arguing and mundane "hows the weather".
Please understand, I will never ask you "Do you want to talk about it?" I will rarely engage when you are in an emotional state. But I will never withhold from you. That is the Trust, the Transparency and the Communication I am free giving in my role and in my home. But if you are a thunderstorm of chaotic energy, do not expect me to put on my rain coat and put myself in a position to fall victim to your bad mood. I will be here when you want to engage me. I will also expect it often. I will be your tool to help you deal with that emotion... but it will never be my fault for not 'reacting' properly. I will react with your emotion with apathy. I will give you the space to work out your own shit. I will give you my full commitment when you need my help, so long as you do not expect me to bloody myself against the wall of volatility that is people in a bad mood that don't know how to handle themselves. I will not expect you to do the same with me. I process my own emotions and will engage with you when I need your help... if you haven't offered already. As a submissive, I expect you to want to engage me often. I provide a calm household and I expect one in return. I am not the sensitive submissive. I want your connection, not your emotions that you want to put on someone elses plate.
Relocation is always an option, but Financial Stability is very important to me. No online only relationships please. You have to be willing to be here, or have me there.
I am a demisexual. Which means you need to understand my brain and what I need, before I find you attractive. Hint - that has not happened often, don't get your hopes up. You have to have something valuable inside your head to offer. I am completely honest and open about my likes and kinks. I will not hold back on my desires or conversation... but if you start telling me what you want me to do to you, or how I am going to please you... or, god forbid... start masturbating to simple erotic words, we will not get very far. You need to state your intentions. I do not fuck my friends, there is no friend zone to relationship potential room in my life or in my mind. Sorry, not sorry. Win over my mind, and my body will be yours for anything you can think of. I will take care of you in ways that will crumble your walls and fulfill you entirely.