I after all this time have learned one thing about all this. It’s a game for about 90% of the people who claim to be a Dom. It’s online play behind their wives backs. They want pictures yet give nothing back. It’s sessions online to jack off to. Men who claim they have lived this life since they were teenagers. If all this were true I wouldn’t be able to take control as easily as I do. I’ve given up and left and then came back, and yet why am I starting to believe that for way to many it’s a game. It’s not to me and I am almost at the point of just giving up. I’ve met a few who live an hour or two away and that’s to far to come. Well I’m worth the drive and I’m worth more than being some worm who has a beautiful family he’s cheating in’s dirty little secret. Don’t text me if you aren’t real and I will know so don’t try and play me. I’m done with little boys games.
I pretty much already laid that out already. I’m so close to giving up. God, I really am. Be real or be gone. At least from me. Men are only as good as the lady in the mans life feels he is. We are a gift. Smarten up. Ciao. Buona Natale
Electrocution and not being deficate on. scat, or anything that could cause permanent scarring or marks, or being hit in my face. Rough play can be nice, but when it's cruel, and nothing but about pain, there's a problem there, bad. It's one thing if you are being punished. Pain is to be expected or it wouldn't be punishment, or learning anything. However, when punishment becomes a daily thing, or the same things are used to punish as it is to show your love and devotion to each other, that's not this girl. Have been on the cage now for a while. Still have not found anyone who can keep my attention. I have learned that If I had to choose who I am it would be more towards the “LG” or Little side of it. Im a bit of a free spirit and my kids have always called me a Hippie, lol. I guess thats as good a way to describe me. I love nature, and exploring new things. I was speaking to a Dom, and he laughed and said yep you are more of a little and need a Daddy Dom, because a regular Dom wouldnt allow you to be who you truly are inside. Im still totally new at this as theres been no relationship at all. Im looking still and at times lose faith, but have not given up totally yet.
my search continues. I know I’m in the right direction because I’m certain of what I want.