ErinKitty92

sub female

in the picture above is a test you can take yourself at bdsm.org.

I'm not sure what to do as I feel I am giving up looking for who I belong to


****TLDR:
I am Erin and i am 31.
I am Neurodivergent and am on the Spectrum.
I value the most clarity, honesty, transparency, openness, and Love.
I worship Love. I need to be able to freely love my dominant, and for my dominant to love me so that I can worship him.
I am tall and very thick. I'm not tiny and I'm not white.
I do not need to be shamed for those things and you do not need to message me if that is what you're looking for.
I am looking for a relationship for the rest of my life both in and outside of the bedroom. I want to be fully owned and cared for, because if i am owned i will be doing nothing but caring for you and living under you and your rules.
Happily.
I am a natural submissive looking for whom it is i belong to and my forever home. I consider myself a traditionalist when it comes to relationships and a
Pet/ slave when it comes to everything else
I am willing to open up and try to connect, in order to find my master.
I would love to get to know one another, conversate and date, eventually fall in love and become one. Evolve our relationship into the lifestyle completely and naturally. Build a lasting foundation that our lifestyle can stand strong forever upon.

I need to be taken for me. As i accept others for who they are. I have hyper fixation on music, nature and animals, video games, rocks and gems and crystals, dragons and dinosaurs, all kinds of art and creating art, and lastly i am very hypersexual. I would like a relationship where i am freely taken at any and all times. For example, while you're at your desk working, id like to be under it. Or say I'm doing the dishes, while getting railed. It should be as often occurring as eating or talking.

I desperately need a strong guiding hand. But also a kind and patient leader figure. Someone i can grow together with and spend the rest of my life living and caring for and obeying. Him in charge, and i trust him so i follow. It's very simple.
I do love manly men, southern men. Strong and powerful. With a healthy sexual appetite. Someone i could trust to know what they're doing because i do not. I am willing to relocate for this man. I am willing to give myself over to him until i die. ****


please don't message me if you are not looking for actual emotional and physical connection. I am demisexual and must love your mind before I love you physically so you would only be wasting both our time in this very short life.


First and foremost I am Neurodivergent and am on the Spectrum.
I hyper fixate on things, especially my partner.
If you aren't looking for complete devotion and a sub/pet that is completely obsessed with you and your wellbeing, I may be too intense for you. I am quiet, soft and a giver. I am also a bit different and socially a bit inept so please keep that in mind when messaging me.
i am very submissive. just naturally am. i see myself as a pet. i believe i should be owned or else i just get myself into trouble constantly. i hate making big decisions, i hate the life ive been living because its been aimless and lost and confusing and tiring. i need a firm hand, a guiding strong man to call daddy and to please to truly make me feel fulfilled and happy. i could die in bliss if i were collared, contracted and kept. id like to be doted over, disciplined, loved, trained. you dont understand how content i could be to just belong and do what im supposed to do. and get rewarded for it! to my perfect daddy out there, i am here. i NEED you, ive been lost without you. please find me. i may be a bit rough around the edges but i can be whipped into shape and i want that so bad. im willing, open and hopeful. this life without the one i need is literal suffering. the ache i feel without you is infalliable and everlasting. please fill that hole. make me whole.

im black/other ethnicity. curvy/few extra pounds. e cups. a little past shoulder lengh hair. used to be super fit but realized looking back i was just malnurished and dying. so no im not tiny and petite. im tall and fragile. i have tons of personality and talent (Art) am willing to move. am willing to grow under you. and willing to learn. need rules.

i would like a daddy who would know when the right time to hold me is, when to spank me, when to command me, when to kiss me. take care of me, take me out, have me work for him at home. i may not be perfect but i can give you my all and my best and only to you.

high sex drive, if trusted is into exploring, tight, never has had stds. do right by me and i will never question you. would prefer to only belong to you, dont want to be shared. i want to find the Daddy i can relinquish my everything to. honestly if i fall head over heels for you (and vise versa), you could brand me as yours forever.

i am looking to give my life over to the right man, my own personal god.

this lifestyle has never been a choice but has never come easily either. ive always wanted to be treated a certain way and have always felt comfortable living in a certain way or way of mind but has never actually had the chance to legitimately. this has made relationships and dating and even my one marriage extremely hard and painful failures. trying to be someone im not doesnt work for me. trying to persuade someone into something i need them to be doesnt work. it either turns abusive or pushes others away bc they cant understand the simplicity of what it is i need from them. its to be a man.

Looking for a benevolent and protective Daddy who is a sadist, a manly man, a father figure. I need to be treated like your very special pet, your slave, your lover, your whore, your wife, your daughter, YOURS in all. i like being choked, tied, blindfolded. i like having strict rules, i like proving myself and doing what im told and i like rewards, discipline. honestly you could call me sweety while slapping me black and blue because i can take physical pain and well, you could get me to do just about anything if youre sweet talking me and treating me kindly. it goes either way bc fear and respect makes me pretty wet too.
i would LOVE if you were an experienced older man who knows what hes doing. someone who could make me beg for him with just his words. someone who can take complete control and make me feel safe and sure. someone i could give my life over to. even if that is my overall intention, knowing me i would have fun being bratty and doing small things for attention, like a child. i may be looking to give myself to another and learn how to serve just them, but it wont happen easily and quickly. ive got to be sure and trust you. and ive been hurt more times than im willing to admit. i used to be so naive.

listen. im not here to play a small role in your life. im looking to be the center of it, as youd be everything to me as well.
im not here to play a part in your mid life crisis or sexual fantasy. i would appreciate if you not message me if this is something you are not completely sure about and dedicated to. opening up and then getting ghosted hurts alot and ruining someone from trying to find thier happiness within this lifestyle is a shitty thing to do. dont be selfish. dont be fake.

im pretty sure there are tons of them. i dont like anything to do with anything illegal, excrement, vomit, anything underage, permanent markings or unacceptable pain ect.
We should be able to discuss privately over time our limits.

I think i am giving up looking.

The last 10 years have kicked my ass. I'm hopeful things will get better in the near future but not simply because the year has changed, but because I am still here and still trying. I am almost out of steam though. I just don't see the point in living such an empty lonely life.
So if you're who Iam looking for please reach out. I need saving

in the first link down below youll find a movie that i watched when i was a child and has shaped my soul. this is what i fantasize about. this is what i need and crave. this resonates with me and when i think about how ive never come close to experiencing anything like what these two have, i feel utterly empty. and thats not even good enough to describe it. if you want to understand what im looking for mentally and physically, give this movie a watch. Its also accurate in how i am as a submissive.
its called Secretary.
the second link to pornhub is...well im obsessed with this guy and how he treats his girls. it will let you know more of what i need from my daddy and what i like. Of course I know it's just porn but I just love the way he treats who he is with sexually. It's intimate and so sexually fulfilling

1: https://bflixz.to/movie/free-secretary-hd-405o
2: https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph57d4b2113b7c4&pkey=22039011

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