sub female

United Kingdom
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About me
34 year old lifestyle slave hearted submissive and middle.
I am registered in Florida, however, I also live outside the US a good portion of the year for work. I'm not comfortable saying where until W/we talk.
I am a well rounded individual with a passion to learn. I enjoy discussion, debate, cooking, art, music, reading, psychology, sociology, and culture. I do not view things as online life - offline life, and do not get along with people who do. This is part of my life. if you are important to me here, then you will be important to me period.
I judge based upon intent. I always seek to understand the *why* behind people's actions and appreciate it if they judge me similarly.
I'm here looking for a variety of things:
~Friends: one can never have too many friends.
~Learning: I've never found a place I feel more comfortable. I've never ever found "my people" before here. There is so much to learn from everyone here! I'm open to all the lessons you have to teach me.
~my Person; my One: I know You are out there somewhere. I know that You are just going through Your own life path until You end up in my life, or perhaps back in my life. Just know I'm actively looking for You. In the meanwhile, I'm traveling my path: learning, growing, and safeguarding what is Yours until You end up ready to claim me and be as W/we should be.
BDSM and me
In brief: I've been in the lifestyle on and off, online and offline for 14 years. In that time I've changed dramatically, sometimes for the better, sometimes not. I'm human after all. I've been in 4 long term D/s relationships, and one short term one. I've been collared only once, and it did not end by my choice. Submission is part of my core personality and identity.
I've also come to believe that there are two dynamics I need to exist simultaneously to be the relationship I need and have the greatest potential to succeed in.

I'm still learning, and I think if done right, I always will be. It is entirely possible that I find out something completely different in the future.
I definitely believe in the axiom: Don't knock it until you try it... try it twice before you form an opinion. More accurately, any new activity takes 7 - 10 times to actually have a fair assessment that is trait based not state based. That doesn't mean i would be willing to try EVERYTHING with anyone. I have many interests that I would only pursue experiences in with people who had specific demonstrable knowledge in, or training with.
I'm not looking for play for the sake of play. I'm not looking for short term relationships. I'm looking for my forever home.If You are looking for friendship *I am a GREAT friend*.
If you are looking to have a discussion or teach me a concept: *I'm all ears!*
If You are looking to see if we are compatible for a relationship:
Are You: sincere, honest, transparent, self aware, courteous, kind, firm but merciful, intelligent, well spoken, well rounded as a HUMAN and a Dominant, patient, HONORABLE, respectful, and passionate? Do You have integrity? Are You the Man you should be openly? Would people consider You a Man of Your word? Are You someone I'd WANT to measure myself by? (hint: if you want crass displays of public indecency or a woman who won't communicate...I'm not it. )
Do You have TIME? A good relationship is work...for both of U/us. I need Your time. I need to be a part of Your life.
Do You have patience? I want forever, and I'm working towards it, however real life commitments (a child) prevent me from moving to You right away. I DO and WILL have every intent of it if We enter a dynamic, it will just take patience. This is not a negative, it gives U/us time to grow into a strong couple.
Do You know You? Can You handle me? I will never claim to be the easiest woman to manage. I am a submissive through and through... to the extent I have been termed a slave hearted submissive, however I also come with a mind. I will never use my mind to undermine You or fight your control. I do seek to UNDERSTAND You though, and need You to desire to do the same. How can You claim to want to own something You don't fully understand every nuance of? That is what I seek.

What do I offer?
I'm kind, emotionally and intellectually intelligent, polite,well mannered, educated, crafty, PASSIONATE, interesting, witty, funny, a quick study, genuine, honest and transparent, reliable, responsible, communicative, intentional and mindful. I am a slave hearted submissive with a soul level need to serve. I'm a service minded submissive. I'm a constant middle; sarcastic and playful with a sense of humor that doesn't quit. I'm a bit of a repressed brat, but only in SWEET ways. I'm a sensation slut, and a rope bunny. Basically...I'll turn myself inside out to please the right One.
This is highly fluid and depends a great deal on who I'm dealing with and in what capacity. The vast majority of these are soft until and unless I build rapport with someone.
soft: permanent marks, scat, blood, stretching, objectification
hard: involving anyone who can not consent, bestiality in practice, involving minors, degradation, humiliation, abandonment, blackmail.

I hate to need to point out men with a spouse or partner who do not CONSENT to polyamory falls under involving anyone who can not consent. No. I've been on the receiving end of that. I will never disrespect myself, or another woman this way.
**** DO NOT OPEN MY DOOR UNLESS YOU ARE PREPARED TO WALK THROUGH IT AND STAY THERE. >.> I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT NEEDED TO BE SAID. I can not turn myself on and off like that. Once You are in... You are in. If You mosey Yourself back out, honey, THAT is abandonment. That is a hard limit for sure. I'm not into games.
What's new
I have got my feet back under me, thanks to so many many people. Bless Y/you all!
Every experience is simply a new step in the journey towards where I should be. The harder the experience,the more growth I achieve.
Every time I get a glimpse of what I'm looking for...a glimpse at my best me... I see it more clearly. Yes, it hurts deeply when that curtain is closed again, but it will be more sweet when I finally have it for real. Forever.

"“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.” ~Anais Nin

". . . it is not uncommon for masters to pride themselves on the depth with which they know their slave girls; this depth is far greater in my opinion than that with which the average husband of Earth knows his wife; the slave girl is not simply someone with whom the man lives; she is very special to him; she is a treasured possession; he owns her; he wants to know, profoundly and deeply, the background, history, the mind, the intelligence, the appetites, the nature and the dispositions of his lovely article of property;..." ~Tribesmen of Gor Book 10 Page 42
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Monday, March 11, 2019
Member since
Friday, February 15, 2019
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