AutumnSpice

sub female

38

Single

I have now come to the realization that being a submissive is not only a kinky bedtime side of me but something that is always there or where my mind always wanders off... I am looking for a deep connection, that goes beyond bedtime and leaves me shivering all day...I'm very much a pleaser, its natural.

I like very intelligent, well-cultured, experienced Dom, I like to read, go for walks, i love the country more than the city. I am 34, no kids, somewhat in shape, could be better, im a black canadian, tall, 5'-8", bubbly, great sense of humor and happy.

I dont have any trauma that could lead me to believe Im doing this because of something particular. The only thing I have as an issue, is the fear of abandonment and, thats because my mother and I were seperated at some point in my early childhood so overall I am mentally healthy and I want a Dom who is the same.

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Submissive
100% Slave
97% Rope bunny
61% Primal (Prey)
58% Masochist
54% Voyeur
51% Brat
44% Pet
37% Exhibitionist
32% Ageplayer
31% Experimentalist
17% Boy/Girl
1% Brat tamer
1% Sadist
1% Daddy/Mommy
1% Vanilla
0% Primal (Hunter)
0% Rigger
0% Dominant
0% Degrader
0% Owner
0% Master/Mistress
0% Non-monogamist
0% Switch

Its been 10 years now since I walked out of this lifestyle, trying to have a fulfilling vanilla lifestyle. I do not have much experience other than penpal, online, over the phone and one time I met with a Dom, but he was nothing like I thought and I was going to be part of a polyamorous relationship and this is not for me. The search for the one became unbearable, I still doubt this kind of connection exists but its not something I can live without because when I cant get turned on by my vanilla partner I have to put my mind in the dynamic of what if this was my Dom and my body, my senses, my breathing, it all changes...

Id love to be tied up i think with a ruban or something soft... i lovento feel helpless to... at the mercy of my Dom type of thing... im still discovering but these basics things are major turn ons...

Needles, pain just for pain, polyamorous, being shared or sent out to other Doms... everything disgusting, beastiality, whatever the hell that is, I love my cat and I love dogs and turtles and all animals so nothig is happenig there...

This is how i look... very recent...if you dont like black... ah well, missing out on some real kink... no way, just kidding... to each their own ;)

Nov 15, 2019

Nov 7, 2019