I’m in my 50s, still very functional, moderately active and I enjoy riding my bike. For the last four years I’ve lived alone and it seems I've always taken care of others better than I care for myself. I’m very domestic as well as 30 years working in management, regulatory compliance, and risk mitigation albeit retired now. I have a mental health diagnosis I manage very well, some of the my traits manifest themselves in various ways such as, saying what I think, sometimes that's perceived as confrontation. I don’t like manipulation, honesty is the best even when it comes to something I don’t want to comply with. I take full responsibility for who I am, I believe we should all be accountable for our personal actions and choices especially when it effects others negatively. I certainly understand any apprehension regarding the aforementioned, I’m two sides of a coin, loyal and hates injustice, submissive and loves those who love me. My submissive proclivities, I believe, are the direct result of my aliment and that is very real.
I’ve had two significant dom/sub relationships, one with a couple and one with a female, our lives revolved around components of BDSM although this was lived 24/7, not whips and chains, but daily life whether it be work, laundry or otherwise as required. Non compliance was always met with consequences specific to an infraction. In the past the sexual aspect of BDSM can certainly be fulling, I’ve always submitted myself entirely and follow instructions, I’ve never had a safe word. I’ve endured corporal punishment that was very real, and I believe being controlled utilizing BDSM tactics are an absolute acceptable and beneficial in modifying my behavior to be compliant.
I don’t know what they are, I either trust my DOM partner or partners or I don’t, a quality responsible person that has access to me must be trustworthy and generally concerned for my health, especially if they have care, custody, and control of me. I’ve been pushed and I’ve done things I didn’t know I could do, so far I haven't been pushed to a point whereas I feel the need to retreat. I only desire responsible people in my life that understand how to effectively manage a submissive without resorting to dangerous or illicit activities. I’m certainly no stranger to discomfort and pain from consequences and for the right person/persons, or (master) I will provide myself as a method of stress relief and will always atone for any indiscretions.
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