I am a late-comer to the D/s relationship and BDSM lifestyle in particular. About 3 years ago, I met a woman on IMVU (don't laugh) who helped me explore my submissive tendancies. While I have discovered quite a few things that clarify how I view myself, I don't really feel that I've advanced very far along that path. I am married, retired and have two children who still live at home, which complicates a lot of my opportunities. My wife has no desire or inclination to learn about this aspect of my personality and has, frankly, told me, "Good luck with that".
I am a submissive male who has been drawn to Dominant females throughout my entire life. Grandmother, mother, sisters and girlfriends. And while I do not feel that I am gay, I find that my more successful friendships with other males has always been where the other male was an Alpha-type. About three years ago I was told about the "sissy" type submissive. I do not feel like a woman trapped in a male body and I do not necessarily think of sexual transformation. For me, it is more the reinforcement of my sub-status. Wearing makeup and female clothing to me is natural because I am not a "real man". I cannot "act" like a real man around Dominant men and women because they can tell that I am faking it and, frankly, don't have the mental or physical attributes of an real man.
I am not really sure what to say here. I am restricted in what I can do due to my marital/family relationship. I will try anything at least once unless it involves scat or physical mutilation.