More questions than answers

busy week or 2

i was targeted by a bdsm financial scammer. ( no shit ! )

on a different site. she/it claimed to be a poor slave longing to serve a master.

she submitted to me before i had even finished my profile.

cue the cute flirting all day and evenings on and off, day 2, she asked me to close my account, 'cos she wanted  me all to herself. who doesn't love there ego polishing :)  so i closed it, like a fkn twit, i was convinced at this point.

day 5. she goes timid. then rolls out the story of the year, 'covid - laid off from work. not paid rent for 4 months 

eviction in 4days'  must have $400 ..please get a bank loan,save me. promise to pay you back. send money via paypal. 

quite convincing, i fucking fell for it,  i found myself opening my online bank account and looking ... 

my left hand apparently under control of my rational brain, starts slapping me in the head.

the internal dialog, rational me - what the fuck are you doing you !!!

soft dopey me, = girl needs money... OH YEAH, FKN IDIOT ! ( closes bank window ).

fast forward, day 8. eviction day. 

now fully suspicious, i make another account at the same place, different wording, looking for sub/slave etc,

guess what....let me tell the story.lol.  yes she targeted the new/anonymous me as well.

so i had the same girl on 2 different accounts submitting to me! and asking for money. you couldn't fucking write it lol, yet here i am, writing it. 

the new second me was(is) a real no shit stern aggressive master. by the book, i asked for references, who was her previous owner. bless, she had an answer for everything.  i was her current owner and new owner but she didn't know. lol.

in total, over 8 days she wanted close to $1000  (not a type'o)

the new me took over, cos she was 'evicted' end of master-1

master-2, i'm evil it turns out, lol, i have her waking up at 5am ,her time, to check-in via email every day,

to build 'my' trust in her. thursday im changing it 3.30am. :)

i put in a complaint to site admin, with all evidence. proof of begging, email ads..the whole lot.

busy week. 

mark.

Many thanks for your time and input. much appreciated indeed. i will fix the issues tomorrow.

head still killing me  :(  

xxxx

Dear sweet kind lovely reader, would you be  as so kind to proof read my new profile.

i spent all day revising editing, adding ...blah,,,now my head aches.

i took my own advice.

many thanks 

mark xx

Too many options. I wish the world was simpler. jack daniels isnt helping. the shop ran out of ice cream. no idea how my mind said JD JD mark...JD. i listen to myself it seems. i preferred black n white tv....NOT :-)

For some reason i cant remember , i was/am re-writing my personal/classified ad. 

nope jack-d is kicking my arse. i give up until tomorrow. 

my level of puzzlement grows. i saw something like..cdtvftm 

i had to decode and look it up.

*hopes* all understood. 

https://www.healthline.com/health/gaslighting#:~:text=What%20is%20gaslighting%3F,they%20question%20their%20own%20sanity.

You don't know me, but my girl says  "...Master you're nuts..  in a nice way. "

Today i gave her the long winded (me)-version of, " oi, bed now ! "

and she  said " ...that's so romantic " 

shhh, dont tell anyone ... my heart officially melted, xxx 

Mark.

signed up to college as an adult learner.

that says it all really. my niece put me onto it friday night.

good news is...it's free. ( one of my fave words )

a massage a massage, my kingdom for a neck and shoulder massage

https://bdsmtest.org/r/F8ut5fc6

i do these tests to see how my wants and needs change.

sometimes just for fun.

i was cleaning my bookmarks, i found these. have a peek, what do you think?

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my results for briggs personality guide.

Key INFP Characteristics
INFPs tend to be introverted, quiet, and reserved. Being in social situations tends to drain their energy and they prefer interacting with a select group of close friends. While they like to be alone, this should not necessarily be confused with shyness2 . Instead, it simply means that INFPs gain energy from spending time alone. On the other hand, they have to expend energy in social situations.
INFPs typically rely on intuition and are more focused on the big picture rather than the nitty-gritty details. They can be quite meticulous about things they really care about or projects they are working on, but tend to ignore mundane or boring details.
INFPs place an emphasis on personal feelings and their decisions are more influenced by these concerns rather than by objective information.
When it comes to making decisions, INFPs like to keep their options open. They often delay making important decisions just in case something about the situation changes. When decisions are made, they are usually based on personal values rather than logic.

Strengths Loyal and devoted /yes!
Sensitive to feelings /yes!
Caring and interested in others /yes!
Works well alone /yeah i suppose
Values close relationships /very much
Good at seeing "the big picture" /yep

Weaknesses Can be overly idealistic / agree
Tends to take everything personally /noo.
Difficult to get to know /yes, very private person
Sometimes loses sight of the little things /not at all
Overlooks details /no i love detail

from here.

https://www.verywellmind.com/infp-a-profile-of-the-idealist-personality-type-2795987#:~:text=1%EF%BB%BF%20The%20INFP%20personality,and%20driven%20by%20high%20values.&text=INFPs%20also%20have%20strong%20interests%20in%20making%20the%20world%20a%20better%20place.&text=Other%20personality%20types%20include%20INTP%20and%20ENFJ.

another description

https://introvertdear.com/news/10-type-secrets-of-the-infp/ 

this is my type. Mediator Personality INFP-A / INFP-T

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other stuff

https://bdsmtest.org/r/tnBBn4S8

i would like to swap switch and sadist.

but , thats what the test thinks.

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are you still here reading ? xxx  :)  

most of the briggs test is ok, but i do disagree with a chunk of it.

relationships is wrong for me. i love and cherish close relationships.

if you want me to do any other tests, post here.