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Warning! : This post may be harsh or offend those who are uber devoted to faith and religion. If you happen to be super devoted to your beliefs and POV's, I suggest you stop here, quit while you are not offended and leave before you become so. That being said, if you have negative comments to say then okay I will accept them, however if they become too intense or toxic I will delete them, so you have been warned ahead of time. That all being said on with my post to all those still interested in reading it.

We all know that the holiday seasons are often stressful for many people, but many of us have never stopped to ask the question of why? Sure because family, being busy, chores, getting things done before the holiday itself. It is my honest belief and opinion that God himself realized his epic mistake he had made by creating humans and giving us free will. Therefore he ignores us 95% of the time and eventually when he can no longer ignore the whining we do he comes down to solve everyone's problems all at one time.

This explains why "the snowball effect" happens. When one thing happens it seems to trigger a series of events that progressively gets worse and worse spreading rapidly and engulfs everything and everyone it touches. Because god figures "fix" everyone at once and shut them up so they leave him the hell alone so he can go back to golf or whatever it is he does in his own world of perfection and fluffy happiness while we suffer in misery. He doesnt care what happens to the fucked up science experiment gone wrong, only that it shuts up and leaves him alone.

Again I understand everyone has their own thoughts, opinions and views of the world in which of course I respect. I in no way want to force my views on anyone and totally respect everyone and their views. I was raised Christian my whole life by a Catholic father and Christian mother but never went to church. I used to like to read parts of the bible and do like certain parts of it purely for the story aspect not for the region part. It is my personal thought that since the bible was written thousands or years ago in a completely different dead language, the translators could have totally changed the context of the text and wording and no one would be the wiser for it.

Reasons for post sorry (not sorry):

1. Super stressed out to maximum

2. Three of main alters are down due to severe illness and hibernation

3. Sick for over 1.5 months (nothing docs can do for fungal meningitis attack, already on meds)

So this is a long assignment I learned about and thought I would share here for those who might be interested in learning the fascinating science behind what we do I hope you enjoy :D

--Disclaimer: I only did the research online, I did not go to school for any of this and if you want more information send me a message or bond and I can give you the link--

Endorphin Level Scale 

Level 1- no altered state of consciousness, increased pain threshold. Light stingy toys or paddles are still pretty painful

Level 2- no altered state of consciousness, noticeable leap in pain threshold

Level 3- resembles a mildly drugged state, droopy eyelids, more relaxed, moans and groans, lower inhibitions

Level 4- definite altered state of consciousness, appear as if drugged, will be very compliant and submissive, is still able to communicate, super sensitive to the smallest stimulation and reaction times are quick. Body is often limp due to the "high" of endorphins but when given stimulus AKA paddle, will jerk, leap and twitch with intense force along with deep long moans with little effort from the top

Sexual intercourse should only be done in levels 3 and 4 for safety reasons of the bottom and to ensure both partners, or all partners benefit from it and no one is taken advantage of and everyone ends up happy at the end of the session.

Level 5- Deep subspace, very unlikely to safeword even when they probably logically should the endorphins are so high they over ride normal safety measures, very groggy, supreme ectasy. docility, bottom can take just about anything the top can do to them, bottom is super relaxed and clearly in altered state of consciousness.

Typically this is where normal scenes/play sessions end as to push further it would require a deep intimate understanding and knowledge of the partner you are playing with.

Level 6- Will not safeword, will take anything the top does willingly, extremely submissive, almost completely non-verbal, wild thrashing at mild stimulation, primalistic behavior and very little if any speech.

AFTER CARE

After play is over aftercare for the bottom is critical for the bottom due to the endorphin and adrenaline levels crashing having being built up over a short period of time. Cuddling time provides contact top to bottom and provides intimate contact that helps the bottom completely focus their entire being on the top. They may not want massage, talk or anything beyond being cuddled and listened to as they babble or talk mindlessly as the chemicals rush through their system. The top's job when done right is to listen, focus solely on the bottom, remind them to relax every so often as the adrenaline will cause them to tense up every so often, drink water, nod to show they are listening to what the bottom is saying, and assure the bottom it is okay. The bottom often has a "falling off the edge of a cliff" feeling as the endorphins start ebbing down so the top's job is to remind the bottom to relax and ensure them it is normal and to enjoy the high state they are having from it and wonderful state of mind they are now experiencing.

--Kit--

So I recently went to a play party where I got to watch a really hot and intense scene where the top beat the sub with various tools like a paddle, various floggers, a red square plexiglass paddle on a bendable stick that left instant marks and caused everyone that got hit with it to instantly jump up and holler and you saw the immediate results from it and even a horse saddle cinch. It was super awesome and the guy was a power bottom who had a huge amount of endurance! However while watching this a guy on the sidelines was making comments that, being a very innocent curious puppy that I am, I just couldn't resist finding out more about. He kept making comments like "Oh that's level 3" or "droopy eye lids definitely level 3 now", so I asked him what he meant by that. He told me the endorphin pain scale. I had to find out more about this.

So after I came home and had sleep since it was 3 am, I was able to chat with my puppy trainer about it who is well aware of what I was talking about. He gave me homework on it and it is SUPER fascinating! I think a lot of people here might be interested in it and wanted to see if I posted it here people would like to see? It explains the different levels of subspace in a medical type way according to chemicals in the brain and body reactions during a scene! If so I can put it here to read and check out, so let me know what you guys think!

--Kit--

 After doing a lot of thinking and reflections, I have come to realize and understand that of course not everyone uses BDSM the same way and plays differently which is what makes our community so diverse and interesting. However with some people it is more a part time hobby, a thing they do sometimes to release stress and then go back to "the real world", where as to others its a 24/7 thing and going to parties is fun, but it is something they do all the time in daily life as well. There are a variety of reasons for this some of which could be related to trauma and PTSD, as many reasons as there are kinks lol so pick and choose the one that suits whatever style works best for your play type. That being said on a day like today when it could be seriously rough for some due to triggers and emotions, putting on a pup hood and pupping out to escape is the best coping skill to use.

I digress though, what got me thinking about this is that with types of play like pup play (which I am passionate about), is that they are not sexual but more like therapeutic. When severe stress happens and triggers are hit, it can cause a lot of problems for people in which they handle in different ways. I used to use martial arts as a way to channel this and it worked out well, I got to teach kids how to punch, kick, obey commands, behave and follow rules as well as correctly channel their frustration and anger into a healthy way. Once I got out of the military however I didnt have that chance and while yes I had BDSM I also didn't have a good focal point to safely release things like triggers. Once I found pup play though it was like waking up after a very long sleep. It opened my eyes to a whole new world I never knew was out there! I could let go of everything, ignore the "real world" and just fun around on all fours barking, chasing balls, wagging my tail and being petted while told I was a good girl/boy. I was in absolute heaven!

After I came out of pup space the first time and researched more into it. I realized I had been a pup my whole life and didnt know it. I had done all kinds of normal pup stuff even as a child! Slept in dog crates, ate dog treats, chewed on dog toys and rough housed with the dogs, chased squirrels and small rodents, dug holes in the yard and generally caused mayhem and havoc everywhere all the time just as a puppy does. I did more reading deeper into pup play and everything about it and the roles, packs, training, handling anything I could along with the leather community. I hooked up with pup groups and made tons of friends and met my Alpha, beta, gamma, omega and Trainer there.

Pup play is therapy for me, a way to escape in a healthy way. Instead of drugs and alcohol I use pup play to escape, I am not sure if this is a bad thing or not but it works for me. I keep my puppy side mostly hidden, (I cant help random barking at squirrels), even my totally vanilla family has told me they could see the difference in me since I started doing it (they didnt know about the pup play until 8 months ago), but they said I seemed a lot happier and for all intents and purposes healthier.

Therefore I believe that kink is a way to increase your mental health and enrich your life to live to the fullest especially on your roughest days.

--Kit--

So I thought following the post on the "catch" Inktober, I would do this fun little adventure story with pictures. I am a puppy and a while ago while talking with some new friends, I came to the agreement and understanding that pup play much like age play is a different sort of kink. With most kinks it is something you do, and then once a scene is over it is vanilla life once more. A game you play (pardon if it upsets or offends anyone as it is not meant to), when tension in life is ruff, when you need some alone time and a way to release stress. However with being a puppy (or any animal) and being a little it is not a scene, not something you do when you play and then do normal life. This is a mental mindset in which it is always present and while you may be able to adult, or hoomin (human) for a time, being a little and animal is part of your make up and who you really are deep inside. Those tendancies will always be a part of how you act, behave and live your every day life. I understand that everyone does pet play and age play differently, that one persons way of playing is not how everyone plays which is perfectly fine and what makes this world so much fun, the diversity of which everyone brings out to show how much fun there is to be had. 

My story is a walk to the park with my Daddy to play by the lakeside but not in the water. So Daddy likes going to walks. I like them too, but I have to be on a leash because the park has a leash law for all pets.

There is a nice view of the mountains from the park we went to play at. There are also lots of trees and bushes to sniff, play in and chew on. Though Daddy assures me that chewing on trees is not a good idea and bushes will upset my puppy tummy. I want to play in the water but that is not a good idea since it is deep and the water is a bit odd smelling. So after we got to the better area of the park Daddy was allowed to let me be off leash. I was excited about this since I knew he had my favorite toy with him!

He made me stay though I really wanted to pounce on him and lick him all over and chew on my ball! I was a good puppy and waited. He rewarded me by throwing my ball!! I chased it really far and then brought it back. We played this game for a few hours and it was fun and exciting!! Then Daddy told me we had to go home because it was getting late and I needed food and water before it was time for bed. I took my ball home with me and put it near my bed then ran to my bowls. Daddy filled my water dish up so I could drink, then I got really excited when he brought my food over. He put it in my bowl and I ate it all.

Then I started playing with my rope toy and chewing on it while Daddy read his paper and worked on carving his wood art. I started getting sleepy from all my exciting play time. I got another drink of water then grabbed my ball and curled up in my bed for the night to sleep. Daddy tucked me in with warm fuzzy blankets and kissed me good night.

Inktober Day 30 "Catch"

--Kit--

Inktober Day 26 was "Dark" and I took several different pictures so you can choose which one you like best

--Kit--

Inktober Day 24 is "Dizzy" Took me a while to do this one because couldn't figure out how best to represent this in a picture as it is subjective to the individual. This shows the person being dizzy, falling down and the tree "fading out and multiplying" when looked at.

--Kit--

Inktober Day 29 is Injured

--Travis--

Inktober day 27 is coat

--Kit--