This question is one I get asked a lot and I even been asking myself so why not publicly answer and open the topic.
I been in the process of putting my life together for a long time and when I was younger I thought my support for BSDM lifestyle was a way to cope with issues such as neglect, child abuse and having been sexually violated.
So as I was trying to fix things I tried real hard to have a normie relationship so bland it makes white rice seem spicy. Well guess what that sucks. I have been unforfilled in years to be even more blunt i havent even had an orgasm in 5 years or any sexual contact in two years. I am so frustrated in the relationship physically but I am a trooper i loves the person so i tried to make it work.
Well lately the fustration is getting to them as well and it is clear were in this zombie relationship neither one willing to move on because we dont wanna be the one to give up on the relationship meanwhile it already bled to death in the corner.
So with that in mind I am here trying to reconnect to my sexuality and honestly come to understand what it is I want again and this time as an adult not be afraid of letting my desires lead the way.
