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1 year ago. November 7, 2022 at 3:44 AM

I write a post about hating myself and how confusing life is and i get like double digit likes and quite a few comments.

 

I visit a dungeon two days in a row and have one of the best weekends in my life and like hardly a word.

 

I do find it odd how it seemed people here seem to more willing to try and lift someone up when they are down which is good but a hug and good job when someone is genuinely happy and having some fun experiences its like eh not interested.

 

Also some of the people I have chatted on this website that extended into real life contacts didn't seem happy for me or interested. 

 

Its kinda funny to see how people who pretended to be your friends quickly start to lose interest when they don't think they will get to be your top your dom your play partner or more.

 

I am on a BDSM website for crying out loud did people think I wouldn't enjoy a dungeon? Or make friends or find fun man O got invited to after parties that seemed to kick off even more fun experiences but I had work to do for school.

 

Anyway this is just venting i am glad many of you tried to lift me up when I was feeling like shit but I wish you could be happy for me when I'm having a good time as well. 

Submissively Your's​(sub female) - Definitely happy for you. I have berm wanting to go but not alone. I would love to go with you next time. Let me know@
1 year ago
IceGirl​(switch female) - I don't know when or where you live i am planning to go this upcoming Saturday Make play happen is the motto (don't wanna use the name incase they arent for the added publicity. The club has a 4.8 on goggle)

It ks a private club and although I have witnessed plenty of sex and mutual masterbation this isn't a sex club its a BDSM lifestyle club.

There's a difference for example for me kink and sex are mutually exclusive in a way I will top for almost anyone and I'm working on my trust and bottom skills but being a demisexual I wouldn't have sex with anyone I didn't feel deeply emotionally connected to.

So asked me to whip cane you or drag a razor blade across your body lets fucking go! But even something as small as rubbing your nipples or sucking on them that for me takes time to feel comfortable doing since that i put in the sexual bucket.

I am in the application process of being a member so you might have an issue you might have email them through there website links exctera follow the page they have rules.

The key ones are because its so close to DC you can't have your phone out without a DM there's a high need for privacy additionally of you feel uncomfortable yellow red safeword are the calls but if you feel the negotiation between you and a top/ dominant isn't going well you can call a DM over but they can't negotiate for you.

You will find them on the website if you look into it there's quite a few. But they all serve the purpose of making it a chill comfortable place where its safe to do your thing and it doesn't have to be sexual in the slightest or you could meet the man or woman of your dreams climb the loft and get bent over and fuck infront of an entier room of people.

They aren't going to stop anything consensual from happening were adults and they treat people as such its why I already love the vibe rather your into safe sane consent or risk aware consent kink bottom line is don't agree if you can't handle something.

Its funny when I was telling a few of my more sex positive friends I was gonna go in real life they were all freaking out like little babies.

I had no idea how telling my real life friends I was going to a "dungeon/ play space" they were going to turn into such judgmental babies afraid of there own shadows.

Like what do they think happens you walk in and someone starts beating on you? This isn't hell its headonist if anything people wanna please each other its a building full of relatively kinky or interested parties involved that wish to have fun with each other no more no less.

In the space no one would put there hands on you in anyway shape or form that wasn't asked for first and all things considered I think it makes it better then the world outside of the club.
1 year ago
WhatamIfightingfor​(dom male) - Comment deleted by poster.
1 year ago
Aquarius Dom​(dom male) - Yep agreed totally I’m sorry you took the first dungeon post down !
I saw it as a breakthrough for you and a celebration of that !
1 year ago
IceGirl​(switch female) - I agree i am sad but it was a combination of he never had anyone blog about him before, the club kinda doesn't know me and it has a good reputation so and it seemed like some people thought what I wrote was a negative.

Hearing my rope top tell me it was a joke the sexual stuff was just an ice breaker and if i felt pressured from the start to show him my breasts I should know better he was trying to ease the tension for a new person.

I said hello! I whipped out my breast didn't I not because I felt I had to but because I loge my breats anyway and why not flaunt it if you got em. I have F cups and to be frank they are so big I can suck then myself easily with only a slight bend in my neck there isn't a moment in my life where I hadn't been happy having breasts.

I debated as mist girls with breasts this large getting em reduced but god life destiny whatever you wanna call it gave me a great set so I love em!

Note if i wasn't so playful would he have suspended me? On a stage and then lift me up with the hoist and then play with me probably not my free spirit and high energy personality gave him the confidence to get into it with me.

My god I had no ducking clue how long it took but the level of focus and intensity on that amazingly beautiful dom when he did his thing and bound me up clipped me in and rasies me up it was a life changing moment for me.

I was in love with myself with being female with meeting such a beautifully giving person with the lifestyle I had so greatly missed.

These are all straight facts not a single word of embellishment or artistic license there. He also told me he could see how many men were circling me like sharks and that when he and his sub left I should watch myself because there could be some people since its a new day that aren't about the life and respect women properly.

He was nothing but one if the most warm loving people I've met and he literally that night brought me to tears because of how amazing the experience was.

I knew I wanted to see him again but the next night he wasn't confrontational but said a coworker asked him what the heck did I write and why and he was like hey ice what was this about and how you know thats not exactly how it went I'm like and I still maintain its a blog not a documentary was it ''true" yeah many if the things happened more or less was the sequence or when or how or ever detail of his negotiation explained.

But he will tell you this I was like please do whatever the hell you want so long as you don't penetrate me use bodily play and or leave a mark.

Hell when he was even trying to get me to pick the tie knots I'm like I don't give a crap how should I know you're the artist do what you feel is best have fun knock yourself out.

I tell you the level of intensity and focus as that man as he prepared my body for rope got the rope started to layer it on and have me bound and totally in his control it never felt so liberating in my life.

There was a crowd it was an open house night but did i take a clicker and count each one? His sub was there watching in a chair staring at me but tje rope really started to bite into my skin and he reassured me it was all going to be ok that I needed to trust him and I need to do what he says or i could get hurt.

I was like sure and he said sit and i immediately sat down and there i was almost as if sitting in a swing i was up in the air and he said lean back and i did and then he clipped my chest remember tie only around rib cage those who wanna do it. Then he lifted my legs and tied them for this entire process the only person who existed in the world was me and him.

He had said its ok to zone out a little but to please not totally go into outter space because he needs to know if its ok for my safety at all times he isn't roping to hurt me.

I was like yeah sure whatever when he was giving me that brief but when it happened the blood rush of the slight tilt towards my head the constriction of the rope the slight spin he gave me on the stage his hands as they lovingly and expertly dressed the knots and his work as he was deciding if he could raise me up.

I never had experienced anything like it rather it was akin to a sensory overload or deprivation all I know is it was hard not to orgasm all over the place the raw pleasure and excitement in my body was overheating my heart.

Id walk through hell for that man to do it again I have never experienced anything close to the moment we shared. I had no idea the bond that has to happen between a sub and dom because I had never sibbed before and even when I dommed it wasn't true doming since at the time i had been so selfish.

I told him I'd sub for him anytime and to be frank since the next day after our conversation he played with me again and tied me to his sub I have to believe he wants to play with me again as well.

Furthermore he did suspend me face up which is a really shit choice because he said if i was face down hed hsve played with my breasts more.

Un hello why wasn't I made aware of that part until afterwards!

I have had dreams that woke me up soaked to the point i had to do laundry at simply the suggestion hed do it again with me.

So to think because a few people taking it outra context or seeing it a negative it just brings me to tears that I finally find a place I enjoy meet people like me in my area and have a great time and then in part because they don't know me and don't want me to make anything difficult they were concerned.

I would delete this entier profile if they asked what's the better option a profile of kink where I had been venting my frustration and by the way in the two years i been on here i never met a damn one of you and only gave my number out to like 4-5 in that entire time or an actual play place where someone actively made me feel loved and welcomed and beautiful if even for one damn night.

I'm crying right now because the thought that people in the clubhouse might be like oh she blogs and made us look bad don't talk to her or invite her back hurts.

There is too much at stake for me I couldn't leave it up people on this website who kink shamed me should be ashamed of themselves.

People who make it seem like since I didn't go into every detail as if it was a recording and not a blog where I was trying to poetically capture the feeling of the moment.

The fact that people would judge or ask him what the hell happened and make him feel concern because of his reputation and then when i started to cry that I had no idea that me enjoying myself and writing about it in the way that I did could cause a problem for him.

And him saying its ok I did nothing wronf and having him hold me and say its gonna be ok and yet for all I know I'm never gonna get to see him again or pkay with him again because it made him uncomfortable.

It would be one if the mkst devastating thinfs in my life to meet someone so incredible and then have him not want to associate with me because I am a poetic person who loges to write and experience emotion.

Writing is my outlet its how i process. He knows the heart of what ai said was teue which is why he said i did nothing wring but if even one person judges him over my flourished words I'd hate that person till the end of time because they should know I think he's a great person we were playful friendly and deeply connected so in a 5 hour night I left out a ton of details I didn't think we're relevant or summed up and combined things to make it a better blog or I perhaps talked about a feeling more then a reality at times.

I thought what I wrote was cool especially because when i found the place which was hard to do might I add the goggle maps takes you to some shitty industrial building I was a little confused and concerned I mean i really did before I found the place go by the damn thing by a couple of blocks and ran into some vagrants asking them if they knew where it was. i mean i figured if they live in the area they must know where it was and they did say wow your into kink that's so hot you look beautiful and it was creepy and awkward.

So to go from that as the start to meeting 11 and having an amazing time I was so unbelievably shocked at the 180 my night took.

Additionally when i fame in the next night and chatted with the owner for about 10 minutes or so about his life the club and maybe doing a cpr first aide class to get people up to date and fresh just incase I was like wow thats awesome! How many private clubs have that much desire to improve to incorporate there members into the fold to make people feel like part of the family.

In my life i maybe went into 3 dungeons before and this was my first time here and it was the best time by far there's a reason it has a 4.8 on goggle and I'll tell you why if you show up and you didn't have a good time its your fucking fault!

The people are so nice and welcoming the place so safe and clean so many areas stations education.

I lived in Baltimore 4-5 years roughly and aside from coworkers made very few friends because I'm so busy with work, school, martial arts, search and rescue, tutoring children and preparing for my application to my goal next year what time do I have.

Additionally i have no fucking interest in going to a bar or house party.

I am straight edge - I don't do drugs, I don't do alcohol, hell I even limit myself to one caffeine beverage a day I am very hyper and too much caffeine makes my heart race.

So if anything be made at people who come to a BDSM website yet wrote things that made some people think of the blog in a context of negative.

1 year ago
ozark hiker girl​(sub female){Owned by E} - Lol I was late to the party congratulating you on having a wonderful time but I blame the bronchitis. I just wasn't on here, but I thought about you.
1 year ago
IceGirl​(switch female) - Oh cool thank you it was a great time overall how are you doing..
1 year ago

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