As some of you may know I list over 50 pounds in 5 months and put on a ton of muscle. i am training for competition Taekwondo.
So i been feeling really great my flexibility is almost at the point where i can put my legs behind my head again and do near full splits while also having some amazing tone in my arms and legs even my abs are starting to peak out again.
Yet as great as the transformation feels it comes at a cost.
I expected the getting hit on constantly by men that I'm used to what I didn't expect was all the female cat fighting. I have lost a couple of Friends who keeps saying ive changed and if you read my blogs yeah maybe I'm a tad more confident and busy but I'm not just running about being odd about it i have so much insecurity that at times I piss females off by iust crying.
I had this on friend who refused to speak to me because I was crying to her about how upsetting it is to get hit on and cat called again. Shes overweight and kinda has a shitty attitude but we were always friends but me complaining about an actual issue she took kinda personal and she broke down and told me she always wish she got cat called and she feels like I'm rubbing it in her face how much prettier I am.
I am so bad at even having these conversations because it doesn't matter that I am getting " objectively hotter" it doesn't change that I'm insecure confused nervous and anxious about all of this.
I lost the weight for taekwondo not to have my female friends not want to hang out with me because they are jealous of all the attention I been getting.
