Most my life being intersex it was hard to relate to people. Usually judgement misunderstandings and an overall inability to treat me like a human being made it difficult.
As I mentioned before I am Intersex and like many Intersex, my family decided to have me corrected near birth to have more aesthetic genitals the only issue is they chose wrong.
How do you tell your friends when you are growing up oh my family tried to have me be male but turns out internally I was female --surprise.
Part of the reason I am so awkward is that I had to have my non functional phallus removed so it's odd and clearly I didn't have the normal upbringing for a female.
I will never forget when highschool was like Ice you need to go into the female gym class.
I was adamant there's no way in hell I'm doing that, I'd rather continue to be picked on by males (binding breasts can only go so far when you have F breasts)
Well it wasn't my choice -- but what was within my power not going to gym at all!
On my highschool grades my gym credits come after all other classes because I had my martial arts training substituted in.
I always felt weird and out of place. I understand the world doesn't have an easy way to deal with intersex people who get improper treatment at birth.
Yet what am I supposed to do?
I might have a female body but like an animal imprinted I thought I was male at first. (certainly had some questions before puberty)
I only recently started coming to terms with the fact my body is based off the base model female.
Never in my wildest dreams figured my life would take this course as a child and young teenager.
Additionally how would you like me to respond to experiences from medical abuse. The medical community removed my ovaries because they were a cancer risk I didn't even know I had ovaries at the time. 😭
Consent never asked or given.
For all the awkwardness and general discomfort in my body I have been treated the best ever from my local queer scene.
When you're not cis or trans but a third type it can feel like you have no where you belong.
Thanks for making feel welcomed even if I'm different and have body issues.