Online now
Online now

Ice Girl's public thoughts.

Me just sharing what comes to mind.
5 months ago. November 12, 2023 at 3:36 AM

Day 11 

I often feel not only unloved but that it is destiny to die alone. 

Introspectively being honest the cumulative hurt of having coworkers classmates exs and even family I thought would be there for me and yet slowly drift overtime has fed that fear. 

I always try to keep a smile and think oh well the next person who seems like a friend could be another outcome. 

Yet it often reinforces the same dead relationships, wasted time, and raw emotions. 

Then depression sets it with the view of why bother trying? It will end up being another letdown. 

If you have overcome this fear, let me know how.

Since, in my case, I feel it's no longer a fear but just reality, and this sorta of feeling can't possibly be the end.

NobleRedbeard​(dom male) - This too shall pass. Patience, and a commitment to becoming the kind of person you want to be, will see you through it. Both good times and bad times never last forever. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it's there. Regardless of whether it's within your eyesight or not. I hate telling people to just wait it out, but it's the truth. Commit yourself to growth, and you'll be stronger once you exit that tunnel. Stay strong.
5 months ago
IceGirl​(switch female) - I am a loving kind person who would crawl over glass for other people but the only people who tend to become my friends are those who see that exploit it and then take advantage of me.

For whatever reason people good people almost never want to keep me in there lives so or I just can't seem to find them.
5 months ago
MCCheer​(sub female) - I have learned it's better to have one or two people who are close and love you for who and what you are. I am usually better off for the people who have left my life because in hindsight I often realize they were toxic.
Hugs and peaceful energy being sent your way.
5 months ago
IceGirl​(switch female) - I an so used to people treating me poorly so that I cannot even begin to know what non toxic people look like anymore.
5 months ago
CotrolYourHole - Crazy and long story but I’ll share in case it encourages you- I used to think I was destined to die alone with no woman or kids, that I would somehow achieve a “nirvana” type state by rejecting much of life’s physical pleasures (somehow drugs were FINE to not reject though…of course🙄☠️). The eastern mysticism/various occult philosophies I studied reinforced this but it was ultimately driven by a distaste for how society and our whole world was going. Had multiple LSD trips where I witnessed how ultimately that’d be tragically wrong for me…a couple near death experiences too which are impossible to describe but in short I realized that neglecting love and family would be the ultimate deafest for me. So the false “enlightenment” I felt turned to strong fear☠️

I still had no idea how to find the right person, but after a few years I got on a different spiritual path and started seeking to help people who felt depressed and disillusioned like I once did- and THATS how I met my wife/sub. Never had a vanilla/dating-type relationship before her btw- we went from only praying and studying together to being committed for life and sexually bonding within a month, then had our daughter on the way within 3 months❤️👶🏻So yes my experience isn’t similar to most peoples journey, BUT I’m short I’d say seeking the truth of life’s purpose then sharing it with others out of love is the way out of loneliness and depression. I wish you all the best on your journey!
5 months ago
CotrolYourHole - *in short is what I meant not “I’m short”😂lol…but I’m not very tall either so maybe autocorrect is just exposing me😜
5 months ago
IceGirl​(switch female) - I can understand height can be a very odd thing I am not quite tall enough to be a tall female but not average.

It is hard to know what that means but what I can say is Thank you for taking the time to comment I just feel like I am unsure that anything is gonna get better.
5 months ago

You must be registered and signed in to comment


Register Sign in