1 year ago. November 12, 2023 at 3:36 AM
Day 11
I often feel not only unloved but that it is destiny to die alone.
Introspectively being honest the cumulative hurt of having coworkers classmates exs and even family I thought would be there for me and yet slowly drift overtime has fed that fear.
I always try to keep a smile and think oh well the next person who seems like a friend could be another outcome.
Yet it often reinforces the same dead relationships, wasted time, and raw emotions.
Then depression sets it with the view of why bother trying? It will end up being another letdown.
If you have overcome this fear, let me know how.
Since, in my case, I feel it's no longer a fear but just reality, and this sorta of feeling can't possibly be the end.