Hand disphora is real, I think on some level it hits deeply that certain hands look and feel masculine or feminine.
When I was younger I once was forced by my mom to do a hand model ad ick.
I have long fingers but dainty hands visually it makes me uncomfortable. Since I work as an EMT I need gloves all the time.
The standard sizes you will see most locations is small, medium, large, and extra large.
Some brands I can put on the mediums and they might have a little slack but mostly fit but other brands are just way to loose to give me a safe grip and seal so I have to chuck those and put on small gloves.
I never know what my ambulance nursing home or hospital is going to have and the act of having to do that is such a reminder of my hands not being as big as I'd like.
Almost every time I have a moment where it's like ugh 😩 why do I have small hands as I throw out medium gloves.
When I'm punching through boards or helping to lift 300 pound plus people up multiple flights of stairs my hands feel powerful.
Yet when I have to put on the smallest gloves in the hospital after throwing out the mediums it just causes a little shiver.
Not to mention people are expecting me to get to work and it feels like they are staring at me puzzled.
As if in their heads saying you don't know your glove size?
I would expect that after all these years I'd be over it but it does make me self conscious.
