About three years ago I got seriously into martial arts regiment training again, at one point I slipped during running.
Less heavy me (175 pounds) on such a slip could easily do a flip when losing balance like that to regain my balance.
Yet me at the time 270 pounds ( 220 now) was just too heavy and I slipped and literally broke my tailbone after not sticking the front flip.
What caused me to have tears in my eyes wasn't the pain and embarrassment of breaking my tailbone infront of the class.
It was being an EMT and knowing women are 7 times more likely to have a broken tail bone due to the wider hips which protects it less, additionally if a male does break a tailbone it usually accompanies the hips themselves being shattered. (My hips were fine)
This is just one of those differences, and it hurt to be reminded of when my doctors first told me I was a female bodied.
Note I am Intersex and my family originally tried to raise me male.
The doctors sat me down and said you know you're female right.
I was like I present more female but I'm not female I am just not that masculine.
They looked nervous like they were about to give me a death sentence and reiterated no you're female because with the condition you have you will never be able to masculinize and you have female internals.
I was stunned, I mean how many other people does this happen to around puberty?
It's not a normal experience -- it's not something you can prepare for or have others explain what to think about it, or feel about it.
When my body so glaringly reminds me of the situation like breaking my tailbone it can emotionally resonate.
I used to never talk about these feelings historically because mentioning it actually opens up one to bigotry and ridicule.
Let's be frank most people don't care about intersex, trans, or non binary issues.
I share because I think it's important to not be ashamed, raise awareness of the situation, and let others know who maybe can't speak or are too nervous they are not alone.
Darkness fades when exposed to light.
