Waking up early to go to the courthouse and I just wonder if I am to be selected who am I to judge anyone?
I have some unbelievable bias towards racisits, bigots, female and child abusers because of what I faced in my own life. Could I even hear a case out with such topics or the thought someone did a vile act would I automatically want to see them punished.
I want to believe I could be non partial but is it ever possible for anyone to be?
The last time I was on a Jury I was 24 ish and it was for a financial crime.
I felt that case which went on for months I could be non biased because it was a matter of did said actions lead to fiscal harm to people and does there behavior show that they are aware that they might be engaged in said activity by a change in behavior.
I just love to help people, I am not sure if juror is a use of my skills.
I am keenly aware how absurd it is to think I can forgo my point of view.
I believe everyone has a learned perspective that is a sum of there collective experiences.
The philosophical ideal that we can divorce ourselves from such things and be truly prudent is admireable.
I am unaware of people who have achieved such earnestly.
Yet if I didn't think such a task isn't gargantuanly complicated not only would I be ignoring everything I know about the human condition I would be a liar.
What's worse is as I fret over this responsibility how many other potential jurors will I have to see today unaware of such philosophical concerns. Leading me to question our relationship with the justice system yet again.