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Me just sharing what comes to mind.
3 weeks ago. September 11, 2024 at 3:19 AM

I get to relax for a second.

Saturday my car got randomly towed (parked on a street that had a marathon wasn't even marked) and dumped somewhere in Baltimore taking me hours to find since the city didn't keep any records. (Apparently this was a favor 😄)

Sunday the coworker who was sexually harassing me threatened me directly so I finally went to the bosses had to deal with only some of the fallout on Monday who knows what's next❓

Literally as that was happening started therapy with someone new so ended up giving them the abridged version of every horrible thing that haunts me in my PTSD. Was quite emotional having it all stirred up.

I asked a professor for an extension due to the harassment at work taking too much time for me to get one assignment done, and although they were kind enough to grant it they want me to see the college therapist to help process what happened because they are concerned about my well being.

As if I even have time for that?

Today had a 4 hour interview with a medical school so under unbelievable scrutiny for nearly 4 hours going through multiple interviews with faculty and staff. Yet couldn't let them see me at all had to have the polished face only a true performer can produce.

and

Just now finished catching up all my delayed work. I can for the first time in almost 3 days can breathe.

I am annoyed at myself for falling behind in my classes. 🤬

I normally am way ahead but the last 3 days been such an emotional and time sync I been fighting to get back in the game.

Other people can take a day off but the house of cards of my life cannot go without being attended.

This is the most critical moment of my entire life failure or success rides on me rising above all obstacles or else everything gets delayed for a year or more!

My spark will continue to push onward ! I'm ready for the next phase of my life and no amount of chaos will kill my moment.

Now I must sleep for tomorrow I will attack the day and make the struggle of the last couple days feel like just a memory.

Guyyy​(dom male) - I was going through group therapy for grief a few years ago. My life was in a very overwhelming state. After therapy the old man running it sat me down. He looked me in the eyes, and with the deep gravely voice only old men have said, "Young man, you are going through a lot."

Something about someone else seeing it and saying it gave me some peace. On the off chance it helps I'll pay it forward:

Young lady, you are going through a lot.

But goddamn, harassment and unmarked tow zones...its just not playing fair.

It sounds like you have fortitude with the moment. It sounds like you know that this is a season and that things will change. That is admirable. Keep hanging in there it'll get better!
3 weeks ago
intenseoldman​(dom male) - You're annoyed by some things beyond your control but "yourself" gets you through them using all the talent, intelligence, and sheer determination that's in you. Again, I say you should be proud of yourself, Ice. YGG!
3 weeks ago

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