Ice Girl's public thoughts.

Female demisexual problems

I had been living with my girlfriend roughly 50% of the time for nearly 14 months then due to a situation for the last month it's been upended.

Yet when I get to see her now I'm so unbelievably excited the entier time It's like I sprung a leak. I have started to wear period panties because that way at least my clothes don't get ruined.

A part of this is also I don't masturbate one can argue girlfriend it's time to figure that whole thing out but it doesn't do it for me at all.

I have mentioned being Catholic and this isn't a nun thing I swear.

I think one of the funniest moments I ever had in my relationship was when my girlfriend was like well I wanna see what you do and I sorta went at it and she said after a bit of time: what you're not gonna bring in media or something? I was like I don't like porn since as a demisexual I don't know any of those people thus it feels abusive. Then she was like maybe a storyline I was like yeah but I don't know them either getting turned on by other people that's kinda stalker behavior.

Then she was like ok maybe if I whisper and talk to you I was like well maybe if you just play with me abit. She's like this is serious you should know how to do this.

Well she got bored and then after another 2 hours or so of me struggling she came back into the room and was so sympathetic to my strife so she finally helped me finish. Once she entered the picture it was quite easily enough. (Thankfully)

Thus take a situation now where I am separated from her for most of the time and then I get one evening with her you can see why I literally have trouble containing my excitement at any moment.

She currently calls me her sad clow frog 🐸 because of how I'm always so depressed and trying to perform and please others.

But before she used to call me a puppy and in many ways this is where you can see that aspect of my character on display.

It at times almost physically hurts to be this infatuated with someone. What's funny is she has towels stashed in locations we have sex normally because of this issue. ( I genuinely wonder how many strategic towels she has placed in the apartment) 😳

Once when we were on the couch and it started to get serious and she was like oh I need to get a towel I was like ok sure I will wait and she's said I'm prepared. 😉

Then she just reaches over and whips out a towel she had stashed away by the huge 6 ft Snorlax we have. (Oh my)

My body has never been this responsive to anyone before it's embarrassing when your girlfriend thinks she needs chucks just to make out with you in your own apartment because you're wetter than a waterpark but there's like no flow control valve on this thing. 💦