Ice Girl's public thoughts.

I'm So Humble 😇🪷

Someone recently presented a counter to my pride in my accomplishments pointing out that maybe I could stand to be a tad more humble.

Yet, I am truly so humble!

I am the product of a rape to a a single junkie mom raised in section 8 houseing orphaned by the age of 16 homeless pennyless no family and if that didn't top it off throw in a Intersex disorder that nearly killed me if you meet me as a teenager as many did you'd expect I'd end up dead.

In-fact my guidance councilors used to tell me to be realistic in my goals that for me simply not being a drug addict was already a success.

One of the few people I thought believed in me an advisor at the highschool who got involved when I lacked family ended up telling me that the best thing I could do as a woman would be to find someone who could put up with me and willing to support me and ride him for all he's worth.

That's been the lack of faith and support I have endured so long. Yet this is ever more to me proof of the duality in this world when it comes to how women are treated.

A few of my accomplishments already -
Published poet, award winning poet, award winning artist, 4 degrees, worked in a research laboratory on addiction, presented undergraduate research on politic corruption in the wake of citizen united, Junior chess champion for my state, played in Carnegie Hall and Lincoln center offered scholarships to conservatory, a professional gamer for hearthstone winning national and international competitions ranked best female player on earth, ranked in the top 300 for magic the gathering and I can go on and on about things I have done.

But at the end of the day people still had some variation of well what does it mean your still a student or you might of had fun but no one cares how many degrees or games your good at your a poor nobody.

Finally I am gonna go to medical school get a doctorate be an administator / clinicianfor a hospital or clinic some day where I will easily clear 150,000 a year plus that's not including writing my life story and whatever sales and residuals so I might be worthless now but it's only a matter of time before I never have to worry about money again.

America loves to believe that someone can come from nothing and make it and for all the bullshit and how hard it is I am gonna be someone who did it. I beat the odds and it was never promised to me.

I suffered so much to get to my good fortune. I had nights where I didn't know where I was gonna eat or sleep because I was so poor and had no one who gave a damn and in not to many days I will have a surgical rotation in a hospital.

So if people think I'm not humble this is a them issue. I am just proud as fuck that no one gave a damn or believed and I made it. Whatever I have set my mind to I have achieved and I ain't gonna stop anytime soon.

"It's not a competition, but I'm winning."

You know what my mother told me when I broke the news to her? That's great but what does that gotta do with me?

And then she went on to bad mouth how the person I am currently dating isn't of the Catholic faith and changed me to be selfish as are the people of her faith.

Apparently getting tired of being endlessly generous to a parasite 🪱 and merely asking her to get therapy to work on her personality flaws is me changing for the worse.

Made her not even want to talk to me anymore which is good the feeling is mutual. So if you wonder why maybe I stand tall and have a sense of self worth confidence and pride because I got here all the while people kept trying to keep me down.

I got lucky anyone who gets a break has some luck but my optimistic commitment to work my ass off everyday while also being a genuine genius didn't hurt.

Anyone who wants to hate on it good. I hope I live rent free in your head and as I continue to kill it you never get the satisfaction of watching me go down.

"I've got it all and I'm gettin' more
But I never fall, beat 'em all
'Cause you know I'm so humble
I say that with no ego"

"Nobody, nobody been acting like nobody
But I don't wanna be nobody
It takes smart choices and dumb luck
That's why there's billionaire dumbfucks
Geniuses driving dump trucks
Suckers with Lexuses
Experts who won't make one buck
I've seen dreams die fast and wither slow
I've also seen 'em blooming where
They're not supposed to grow
And I've seen the ones I've planted and
Watched 'em blossom in the snow
Ask me if I'm dank?
(Are you dank?) Preposterously so"

I always will be the one an only me.