Ice Girl's public thoughts.

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To those who gave me words of support 🌹

Thank you so much my first Quiz has been graded and I got 100% .

The thing is I feel that was kinda lucky 🤣 because every question on the quiz I knew but so much material was covered I know what I don't know and it's a lot.

I am different from those who know me personally I didn't come from money infact Im an orphan so already did something neither of my birth parents did get a college degree let alone tackle med school.

I think I sometimes weird people out for example I held the door to the elevator open for the cleaning crew when I was leaving the building yesterday and they told me to let it go they would get the next one I was like it's fine and she didn't want to talk to me or make eye contact.

When I was asking her how she's doing? And she kinda said in a low voice she isn't supposed to talk to me.

I was in near tears 😭 my second job after working a dry cleaners when I was 16-17 was as a janitor. Just because I'm a med student now I care and I wanna encourage her and to see how because of maybe some other people in the medical department being pricks it make her learn the only way to stay employed is to keep her head down and never do anything to upset the medical professionals.

If everything goes well I will have my doctorate, but I never wanna be the type of person that horrifies the cleaning staff so much they don't even wanna get in the same elevator as me or talk to me for fear of being fired.

It's moments like that which have made me more than anything question if I don't belong as a "Medical Student at Prestigious University"

These sorts of culture shocks will keep happening. For example when I went to do a blood draw the nurse asked me if I was in nursing school and when I said medical school she said la de da I didn't know I was talking to my future boss.

I said I have to pass it first I'm just a poor kid in over my head trying my best and if anything I know because I seen it working as an EMT nurses are the beating heart of medical care so I don't wanna "Boss" nurses around I wanna help make your lives easier since you do all the hard physical and emotional work.

She told me dead in the eye when her daughter went to nursing school it gave her grays but she got through it and by hook or by coork I will also make it through and then I gotta come back to the office so she can call me Doctor one day.

I was like practically in tears. I don't know I been so emotional lately maybe it's embarrassing to have so much upheaval.

I am in a class with 60 students and so many of them are damn prickly asses who are full of it from there richy rich parents.

Some have even refused to talk to me the most amazing one is where there were some cubbys in the cadaver lab and I had my bag near one persons whe she say me put the bag near hers she went back and moved the bag just to not have it near my stuff.

I don't know why she had to be like that. I know this is kinda a ramble but my emotions are kinda all over the place.