Beautifully Broken

For nights upon nights I sat in the moonlight
Wishing upon the stars that I could find my voice, my strength
Drowning in my unhappiness, unable swim
You are a dark, heavy cloud
Smothering me with your smooth words of how it would be
They were nothing more than treacherous lies
I had given you a taste of divine heaven, nectar of the gods
You gave me a mediocre performance at best, never able to make me scream your name
You wanted a muse at your beckon call, to use and abuse
I wanted heaven on earth, to have arms wrapped around me just for the sake of missing me
Under the moonlit sky my need to submit crumbled beneath my resolve
I set myself free, to love myself
You became less of a man that day
Begging, pleading, saying I was being rash
You thought you earned the right to keep me and not feed my soul
You only wanted the gift between my thighs, which should have never been given so freely
So now I sit beneath the warmth of the sun with my resolve as my company

Placed in a cage for the entertainment of others
Surviving on the smallest interactions, notions of what could be
Trained on what was the proper way to act
To be seen and not heard
Never a priority, always held at arms length
Forgotten about, only myself for company
Molested, raped and abused, my cage has not been kind
I learned to call it home and keep all my demons locked within
Never showing who I really am for the fear of disappointment and rejection too great
These demons are my solace, the thing I can always count on
They protect the purest parts of me, each of my shattered pieces
I am broken, oh so beautifully broken
My cage no longer exists, but I learned much from it
The beauty of life
That in order to grow there must be pain experienced
To be present and focused
To be attentive to the needs of others
To never give up
To hear the things that are left unsaid
But most of all, to love with all I have
My cage and what happened within does not define me
I am so much more than that
I am a splendid adventure
I am an oasis waiting to be discovered
I am a shot of whiskey on the roughest of nights
I am a warrior with a gentle heart
I am someone's everything, just we have yet to meet
I am broken, oh so beautifully broken

Just out of the bath
Laying here in my satin cami
my thoughts drift back to You
The sly smile You have when You say how beautiful i am
That's all it takes to get me wet
The way You bite Your lip when You say how bad You want to fuck me
That's all it takes to send electricity through my whole body
Your voice when You say my whole body needs You to mark it
That's all it takes for that electricity to reach the depths of my core
Never has it taken so little to awaken the fire within me
Never has it taken so little to keep that fire going
You saying hello
That's all it takes and i become a wildfire
The pleasure conveyed in Your face
That's all it takes to have me on my knees before You

i kneel by the door awaiting Your arrival
i can feel my juices running down my thighs
You have relentlessly teased me with Your messages of what was to come
i just want one touch of my soft velvety lips but i know there will be punishment for disobeying
my arousal has me craving Your pleasure, i will obey
i hear You on the other side of the door
my breathing quickens, my breasts rise and fall with each breath
my pert nipples ready for You
You walk through the door, my body on fire, the slightest touch may send me over the edge
You finally speak, struggling to get the words out, barely above a whisper
i cautiously stand obeying Your command, not sure my legs can support me
i try to conceal my smile knowing that You are aching to use me for Your pleasure
You caught me out of the corner of Your eye
Swiftly, Your hand is around my throat and i'm pinned to the wall
Gazing into Your eyes, i see the raw primal hunger within
The excitement grows and my whole body is trembling
i try to still myself as i am on the verge of ecstasy and You have not given permission yet
A slight wave of fear washes over me as You begin to squeeze tighter around my neck, but quickly fades as i see the smirk on Your face and i know You won't do more than i handle
You cup my breast and begin to roll my nipple between Your fingers
A moan escapes my lips and i arch my back, begging for more, wanting to feel Your teeth on my nipples
Your grip on my neck tightens as Your other hand drops from my breast
The look in Your eyes says it all, i know not to beg unless You command me to do so
i quickly feel the sting of Your hand on the side of my breast, again and again
i whimper as the pain turns to pleasure
You smile as You admire my now red skin
i'm panting faster and faster, so desperately needing release
Soft moans leave my lips as You gently kiss the marks, Your marks
i quiver knowing i have pleased You
You ease Your grip on my neck and i try to still myself again
You force me to my knees and command me to suck You
Taking Your long, thick cock in my hand, i lower my tongue to Your tip and softly lick the pre-cum that has formed
i feel Your cock twitch in my hand
Slowly i lower my mouth, swirling my tongue taking You as deep as i can
i repeat as i slide Your cock out of my mouth and flick my tongue along the underside
As i bring it back in my mouth, You grab my hair and force me to take You quickly
You are in no mood for my teasing
i suck harder and faster
Your groans and growls are almost my undoing
i begin moaning on Your cock, the vibrations sending You to the brink
You pull my head back and Your cock pops out of my mouth
In one swift move, i am on my feet and facing the wall
You growl in my ear to put my hands on the wall and spread my legs
Not spreading them far enough, i feel Your knee pushing them farther apart
Your hand around my neck as i feel the sting on my ass, over and over
i am so close, praying for my release
i feel Your fingers dig into my hips as the tip of Your cock enters me
i release a soft moan, needing more, needing to be completely filled by You
A growl erupts from deep within You, cursing at how tight i am
One swift thrust and i am fully impaled
i let out a scream as You stretch me
You don't move allowing me to relax against Your cock
i am completely enveloped by Your body, arms, and hands
You squeeze tighter around my neck and begin thrusting hard and fast
i need release so bad it's painful
Sensing i am close, You slow and reposition Yourself
You begin thrusting hard and fast
my moans are begging You and You finally command me to cum
i explode around Your cock, clenching You tight
You let out a long growl as Your warmth fills me
You quickly release my neck to catch me as my body melts