Beautifully Broken

For nights upon nights I sat in the moonlight
Wishing upon the stars that I could find my voice, my strength
Drowning in my unhappiness, unable swim
You are a dark, heavy cloud
Smothering me with your smooth words of how it would be
They were nothing more than treacherous lies
I had given you a taste of divine heaven, nectar of the gods
You gave me a mediocre performance at best, never able to make me scream your name
You wanted a muse at your beckon call, to use and abuse
I wanted heaven on earth, to have arms wrapped around me just for the sake of missing me
Under the moonlit sky my need to submit crumbled beneath my resolve
I set myself free, to love myself
You became less of a man that day
Begging, pleading, saying I was being rash
You thought you earned the right to keep me and not feed my soul
You only wanted the gift between my thighs, which should have never been given so freely
So now I sit beneath the warmth of the sun with my resolve as my company