Dominating From The Heart

sensuousgent - I love this as I very much believe that time spent in introspection are critically important for really understanding what our hearts ultimately desire. In case you were interested in seeing my goals related to being submissive, here you go!
1) First and foremost, I am looking to find meaning, transformation and liberation through surrendering to my partner, making her my ultimate concern. I want to put my faith in my partner, because I know deep down that nothing else will bring me the peace and joy that I yearn for in my heart. I want to give myself to her as completely as possible. Surrendering for me means serving her, pleasing her, and putting her needs and desires above my own and trusting her to guide me to evolve into a better human being.

2) I aim to develop my ability to be actively submissive vs. passively submissive. I would aim to actively strive to learn as much as I can about my partner, investing my precious time and energy to really learn what makes them happy and satisfied and then devoting myself to becoming as expert as possible in those areas. I'm a bit old fashioned and am inspired by the courtly love and chivalry of knights of old, so I envision myself as a knight fulfilling quests for his queen, knowing that improving her life will also improve my own as her faithful subject.

3) I want to learn to be fully transparent, revealing all of my authentic deepest secrets and concerns with my partner. I want her to see me for who I truly and really am, removing all masks and barriers, trusting that when she sees my true identity I will not be rejected but more fully embraced. And when I am accepted as I truly am, the gratitude I will feel will only serve to deepen my desire to serve and be bonded to her.

4) I want to be trained and conditioned to always put my partner's sexual needs before my own and to embrace the notion of delayed / deferred gratification as a means of achieving a greater good. I want to 'master' orgasm control and get to a point where I really feel that everything about my sexuality is entirely under her ownership and control.

5) I want to develop the habit of feeling and expressing constant gratitude, no matter the circumstances of my life. If my partner is rewarding me, I am grateful. If she is punishing me, I am grateful. Because I know that all attentions received are making me a better person!