Moving on

I was recently hit (non-consensually) by my Dom. While listening to one of my favorite songs and dancing, I accidentally fell on him. He told me to quit attacking him. Thinking he was joking I kissed him on the head and laughed. He pushed me off of him and punched my in the face twice. He had been drinking a lot while on pain meds but I hit him back in self defense and he called his adult son out of his room to help him. They called the police and now I can't go back to the home and life we built over the last 4 years. I know it was a dunk misunderstanding but he packed all my things, sold my truck, and is already talking to other women. I was thrown out and replaced like a piece of trash that was never loved. I know he won't take me back because even if he wanted to his son wouldn't allow it. I'm just so lost without my Daddy!! I dream of him every time I close my eyes and wake up to the pain all over again. I dream of us picking out our couch, buying plants for our garden, going to baseball games, and remodeling our home. How do I move on? How do I live without him? My Daddy was my whole world! Now that he's gone my whole world has come crashing down around me in the blink of eye. All I wanted to do was listen to records and dance with my Daddy. Now I have to find a new place and life without him, my garden, my home... How can he do this to me? I just hope he knows that I didn't fall on him on purpose and I still love him very much. Even if he has moved on already.