Thoughts feelings and god knows what else

Waking up in the morning wondering what will happen going about your day trying to do everything  that needs done thinking about things as you go along then you hear a sound or see something  and suddenly it reminds you of something that something reminds you of a time of pleasure of the feeling of that sweet bliss you can reach when your allowed to orgasm and it tightens  something deep inside of you you feel that sheer need to find that release you crave it and your breathing  changes and the need increases  you get to the point where your ready to beg and plead to be allowed that relief  finally your granted permission  and boom the need is finally  satisfied  everything feels so good you feel so relaxed the point is av learnt that this is purely  amazing av learned so much but yes I am still learning but the more I learn the more I try the more this happens  I used to feel so uncomfortable  with it all but now I know this is a good thing not bad and it isn't wrong my past might have broken me a bit but bit by bit I am fixing things learning the more I talk to people and learn from them the better I am getting at fixing myself and I can't thank everyone  enough so thank you so very much I can't tell you how much I appreciate  the help