Werebeast's journey

I am sick and tired of women who have standards so high that no real man can reach them.

That being said, I am a tall, smart, funny, silly, yet logical man.

Unfortunately for the longest time I couldn't get a date, probably because I respect them too much, yet was unwilling to treat them like they were better than myself. I try to at least know my own worth.

I met a woman who claimed to be a sub. We moved in together and I quickly learned that she was really a lazy, self-centered narcissist.

I would have tossed her on the street sooner, except she lied about having an income. She had been sleeping on a friend's couch. That friend was tired of supporting her. If I tossed her out, then she would be out on the streets.

So for the start of 2020 I needed help with something...something normal. Something vanilla. She refused to help me. Five or six times I asked her to help me, and she refused to even look at me.

So I went to discipline her, and she called the police on me. I spent two weeks in jail, and lost my apartment and my job.

This has been a rebuilding year for me. Thankfully most of my stuff was put into storage while I was locked up.

However the good news is that I have learned a lot more about how to be a better dom and what to watch out for because of this mistake.

I just had a conversation turn sour on me, so I need to be clear on something. There is the world how I world like it to be, the world how I think it should be, and the world as it really is. The world how I think it should be and the world as it really is are very far apart. Yes I know that I can work to change that, and if enough of us work together, then we can change things for the better. However when I say that X is horrible, yet true, that isn't just me having a negative outlook on life, that is me being realistic.
Actually I think I will give details.
I watch a lot of television and movies, and sometimes on certain shows you will see two or three guys talking and a woman walks by. They will then talk about if she is a 7, an 8, or a 9. Maybe they say she has the legs of an 8, the ass of a 9, and the breasts of a 10, but her face...
Now I have never been part of such a conversation, however it is my understanding that such talks do in fact happen.
It is also my understanding that millions of children die of hunger and thirst every day.
I don't want that to be true. If I had my way everyone would have plenty of clean water to drink, good food to eat, and we would be judged more on our choices and actions, then how good looking we are, who our parents are, and how much money we have in the bank.
That being said, Humans don't always do what I think is best. There have definitely been times where someone else had control of the TV and they are watching a show that calls itself "funniest videos" that are mostly just people getting hurt or embarrassed because they did something stupid.
So even if I didn't exist, these people would still be starving, those people over there would still be rating women on their looks, women would be rating guys on their looks, and people would still be posting videos of people doing stupid stuff.
Come on man, are you going to tell me that you've never heard a woman get excited when a hot guy takes his shirt off in a movie revealing a set of six pack abs?
Assuming that all of these things are true, and really exist, do I have a negative outlook because I believe that they really happen? Or am I being realistic?
I don't have to approve of something for it to really happen, and if I thought for one minute that bad things happened because I wanted them to happen, or that my unbelief in something automatically made it go away, well there are mental hospitals for people who believe that they have that level of control over the universe.