I choose to smile.
Every day. Every time.
My ?, my ?, my joy ? -is all my choice but it's definitely not easy.
I watched my brother being put in the ICU the same day my family celebrates the life of my grandmother. It's funny how 5 years later it feels like her death just happened. Yep! She transitioned on Valentine's Day. I do officially hate Valentine's Day. I can't cry forever but I do allow myself a brief moment to feel, to be sad. I feel like no one truly gets it... At least no one near me does.
But it's ok. But these are the days I feel less like being submissive, less like taking down, & more like being a challenge. Learning how to separate the lifestyle from real life is extremely difficult but I will learn. Don't think I could take another Valentine's Day death.
But no matter what I will keep smiling because it may be something as simple as a smile that save a life
I will continue to laugh because laughter is infectious... By doing both, I continue to be be the light to someone's life
-when there's, like now, no light in mine
Just Thinking Out Loud
~In Search of Truth~