Random Thoughts

I am who I am

Without one plea

 & I no longer give a fuck about what you think about me 🖕🖕😜

Just Thinking Out Loud

~In Search of Truth~

Hi My Sugar Plum Peeps 😘

Wow.. hearing crickets...

Haven't been here n a while. 

Sooooo..... Anyways...

My favorite theme will always be if you can't find a place... Create you one!

That's exactly what I'm doing.

Thought I made some headway on this journey of mine -trying to find my place.

Actually I did!

So I'm definitely a little...I found this out, not with the help of a Dom but other little brats and yes of course Research 🤩!

Apparently there's a new category for me now 😍🤩😍🤩 : 

🎉🎉ROYAL FUCK UP FUCKTOY 🎉🎉 

That can be taken multiple ways👄👅🤪

LOL 

~My Goodness! I know I'm not the only one~

To all other royal FUCKUp FuCKToyS..

Hello 👋

(Did find this out with Dom's help)

But I'm Gonna take it all and embrace it. I love being the fucked up weird one because...

I am who I am

Without one plea 

& I no longer give a fuck

about what you think about me 🖕🖕😜

Just Thinking Out Loud

~In Search of Truth~

Sick of crying

This was supposed to be fun 

It's not..not anymore

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing 

Or why the fuck in this lifestyle I am staying 

I like to laugh and right now

even the propped up smile is fading 

Trapped in a tug of war of what I should do

😍 Hi! My Sugar Plum Peeps! 😍

For once, it's been an easy day.

No drama! No mess! 😁

Thanks to everyone who reached out to me. My brother is doing well. He has a stroke but is recovering nicely. He got to the hospital just in time. But people please take care of yourselves....think we often underestimate the ones around us who really love us. We are never truly by ourselves even though you may feel that way. Just got to reach out. There are still some good ppl in the world.

Now to get back to real business 🤔

How do I fuck with my Dom without feeling him ...but getting him to "fill" me? 😍

🤔 What to do? What to do? 🤔

Just Thinking Out Loud

~In Search of Truth~

Keep fucking up 

Keep walking out 

Keep icing her out...

One day you may come back to... 

A calm scene 

A sadistic smile

A made up mind 

               A determined soul 

                           A locked door 

.....

And just like that...

With cold eyes 

&

Warm tone

Her heart ❤️ went on ice

2021 is not being friendly but at least my heart can stop racing. 

I realize I am the strong one, the one that has the need to keep everyone afloat. But who keeps me afloat? I do. I find laughter where I can to keep from breaking. 🤪

I literally have no one on my side right now. So, I'm going step away that laughter and bare to you a broken soul. This will definitely be followed by some super fuckery 👅😁

So...

We got word today that my brother is ok. He had a stroke. People, we got to take care of ourselves. One of a few who actually gives a damn about what happens to me... Was nearly home in seconds. Really didn't have time to think of my grandmother's death...I was busy keeping everyone else afloat.

Doms fail to realize who they have in their midst when they have a bratty sub. The same strength that keeps everyone afloat, keeps me strong.. Keeps me a bit bratty. Doms seriously don't understand brattiness is a form of strength, a wall to protect the weakness. 

So when u reject the bratty sub, don't be angered by the wall you violently kicked and broke your foot on. We are a lot stronger than you think. Not easily broken.

Just Thinking Out Loud (painfully 💔)

~In Search of Truth~

Moment

❤️~❤️~❤️~❤️~❤️~❤️~❤️~❤️~❤️~❤️

Ever had that moment...

You need to feel the core of their domination

That moment where you had to take that one last breath, say that one last word, make that one last comment, push that one last button

Ever had that moment
You needed him to 
turn oh so suddenly, 
walk to you oh so slowly, 
back you up oh so quickly 
to the hard cold surface of a wall contrasting with heat radiating from he who completely dominates thee

Ever had that moment
Where all is in slow motion except the quick rat-a-tat beating of your heart pumping blood that has you swooning at the nearness of his touch
And the familiar fear juxtaposed with unfamiliar wetness óf your core
Has you gulping and clinching your thighs sore

Ever had that moment
You had to feel his hand to your hair
Slowly moving, quickly grabbing
Gently pulling, roughly moving
Too your your core
Forcefully opening 
tender sore thighs clenching
With Long fingers gliding
Into your folds sliding
Twisting and moving
Curving and swirving escalating you

Ever had that moment
Where cumming was pointless 
Cause he's going to force it
Until you were weak at his knees
Falling in his arms, 
unable to resist his charm
And he knew when you could and could not take more

Ever had that moment
You knew above all else
His -You were definitely
And you were very much fucked

And yep happier -you couldn't be more 😁 

Ever had that moment?

I choose to smile. 

Every day. Every time.

My 😊, my 😂, my joy 😁 -is all my choice but it's definitely not easy.

I watched my brother being put in the ICU the same day my family celebrates the life of my grandmother. It's funny how 5 years later it feels like her death just happened. Yep! She transitioned on Valentine's Day. I do officially hate Valentine's Day. I can't cry forever but I do allow myself a brief moment to feel, to be sad. I feel like no one truly gets it... At least no one near me does. 

But it's ok. But these are the days I feel less like being submissive, less like taking down, & more like being a challenge. Learning how to separate the lifestyle from real life is extremely difficult but I will learn. Don't think I could take another Valentine's Day death. 

But no matter what I will keep smiling because it may be something as simple as a smile that save a life

I will continue to laugh because laughter is infectious... By doing both, I continue to be be the light to someone's life

-when there's, like now, no light in mine

Just Thinking Out Loud

~In Search of Truth~

Hi Sugar Plum Peeps!

So, it's Valentine's and I'm running through my endless fantasies and realizing the blessings & some disadvantages toys can bring. Actually, only disadvantage is that it makes me crave domination 🙄

Nevertheless, toys are a girl's best friend -sub or not. Recently finding out that a dildo can vibrate, twist and thrust opened my world up to endless possibilities. It's unbelievably amazing 😻

Fortunately, it makes a man unnecessary. Unfortunately, it makes me crave domination 😜.

Hmmmm 🤔🤔What to do? What to do?

I know! 🤪Scrap domination and enjoy the fantasy ride to wherever it takes and for however long my mind can force me to cum! Mmmm!

😁 Giddy Up! Kitty! Giddy up! 😁👅

🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇🏇

Just Thinking Out Loud

~In Search of Truth~

It's the way of the brat

 at least this little princess bratty...

I do as I want, when I want, how I want

Until I get a satisfactory No

And a purring kitty is dominatingly satisfied 

Just Thinking Out Loud

~In Search of Truth~